Well I got my weekly, phone message remonding me we are divorced and that I should read my divorce papers. I talked with the OM's wife and now my Ex says that I am not allowed to do that. I didn't see anything in the Divorce papers that say's that i can't have contact his wife. by the way she lives with other man, his wife and i only put the pieces of the puzzle together to figure out how long they had this planned. Anyway I did send her an email and asked her to read her divorce papers and to let me go on with my life. I also told her I did not want the divorce but was trying to honor her wishes, with no contact and just trying to go on with out her, told her i hope she was happy with him and that i hope they have a nice life together. I said that I did the best I could and that I felt she was a good mother and with and that I would remember the good in her. I know this woman isn't good for me, When I hear her voice I can tell the fog is thick, everything she says to me seems to be out of pain or confusion, but it is always hurtful. I don't feel I deserve any of this, her choices are not my fault. I am tired of hurting. I am thinking of changing number, but then I fear I will never hear from her again. I think I am as sick as her. Sorry for rambling on, just ticked and hurt here. thanks for being here.

Dude get a grip, If you do not want to hear from her , then do not e-mail her, if you have a kdi I would not advise changing the number but if you don't change it today. Who cares what kind of fog she is in. If you really want to get on with your life do not worry about her, just move on. I know it is hard but you have to do it for your own saneity! Wish you luck, but there comes a time when you just have to let go.