Hey, I have a problem. I have been very decietful, and have lied, and broken my husbands trust, before and after we were married 6 months ago. I slept with two guys while we were engaged, and kept friendship with one of them, even though we ddint see each otehr again until way after we were married - then i told my husband about ti. I also was scheduled to do some pornography shoots, but didnt - but the fact that i would consider doing somthing like that made him understandably upset - then, i had sex with one of his friends, but i told him teh same day it happened.I was being honest, and i guess it ddint count for anything. He has filed for divorce, and i want no part of it - I want my husband back.God has been helping me to change, and be teh person i should, but i wish he was living with me to see the changes. How do i get him to see that? Do I wait for him? Do i accept that i am irreversably screwed up, and face living my life without the man i love? what do i do? I have changed, but he isnt here to see it. Praying is helping me, but i wish it would help us!! Got any ideas?<BR>Sarah

Wow, I don't even know what to say really....<P>You have done a lot of damage in a very short time. <P>You say you are making changes but just because you say you have and are starting to make them it may take awhile for your H to see this.<P>Have you sought professional help. Please don't be offended and I profess little knowledge about this but perhaps you have a sexual addiction, or very low self esteem? I doubt whether you are irreversably screwed up but you do need help to discover why you do this. <P>Wishing you the best.<P>