Dear Janel,<BR>I hope you read this as many other people probably will. I'm sorry for what I have done. I can only learn from the pain I have inflicted upon you. I hope we never end up like most peoples have as illustrated within these episodes of the forumn. We have everything in life that most people can only dream of having, and sometimes I forget this. I would never do anything to harm you nor would I want to end our marriage as a statistic. I can't explain why I have done what I have done, but only ask for your forgiveness. You are my best friend and we share everything together. I have learned about some of the real life situations in this forumn that made me think " This could be anyone", and it scared me. What really sucks is that a mariatl problem is always hushed and only illustrated as a smile and a knod that everything is great. Our families are too proud to even explain the smallest of marital problems...It's normally found first hand. These articles have opened me up to what could happen, and contains subject matter that I can relate with. I love you Janel, and I will always be there for you. My job seems like a huge failure, I always try to exceed there expectations only to fail or atleast think I have? I'm almost burning myself out! The stress of everything has been overwhelming! All I have done is worked and came home and complained, I love what I do, but lately I'm starting to realize that my overworking is only killing me!...I miss college when we were poor and nothing mattered! Now all we can think about is how to spend the next dollar we make. I miss my Janel, and myself....I miss the confident full of life college grad that I was?? It seems like everything I have done in the past 2 years since we got married has been nothing but pain and suffering. First it was our wedding day, next it was the new job and move (the way I treated you), the internet, dishonesty, and now this! I want to change....I want the best life for both of us. Since we have been married you have been nothing but good to me. Never failed at anything, never complained. You have earned my trust and my confidence and I wish the same for myself, although everything points in the negative infinity direction. I don't know why it has to be so complicated? This isn't rocket science!!!<BR>