Hi,<P>AFter filing and stopping a hearing 2x, there is one this Friday, the 15th.<P>He knows that I don't want this. Several months ago, I began my act. I know it will not matter, and if I had put on an act sooner, I doubt if it would have made any difference.<P>If my husband didn't have an alcohol abuse problem, I am not sure it would be any easier for me to accept; but, he does have an alcohol abuse problem and so does the ow. So, I just am so sad that alcohol has destroyed another family--our family.<P><BR>I can't think like an alcoholic personality. I can only think like a sober individual. So, that is why is it so difficult to accept his actions and what he is doing to end our marriage. He can't think like a sober person so he can't and doesn't care about how we feel. <P>In order for my H to ever reach a level of sobriety, he would have to make major changes in his lifestyle. For now and maybe until he is seriously injured in an auto accident, and maybe, even more than that, he will continue on his path of destruction. The ow is an alcoholic and they are perpetuating this lifestyle with each other.<P>So, my life as a single parent will become permanent on Friday, June 15th. I am not a happy trooper. But, of course, I do realize that he will be held responsible for all of his actions, if not now, eventually. I also admit that the person who is my H now is not the person whom I would want to come back to me. He appears to happy wiht his freedom to drink and live with no morals. How sad for our children.<P>Thanks for listening. <BR>My best to all of you. <BR>elo<P>Alcohol is <BR>