I was just thinking it has been 4 months since the divorce, everything has been paid and I honored all agreements. We have had no contact except for one call she made which was brief. It appears that her and OM are happy , I heard they bought a boat and are looking at houses, how ever his divorce isn't final yet, sounds interesting to me. I was hoping it would end by now for them but it hasn;t. All I know at this point is the rollercoaster ride doesn't stop for me. It has evened out some I have more good days than bad days and I am pushing myself to get out and do things. I feel i have been wasting away waiting for nothing. As each day goes by I loose more and more intrest in any type of reconcile, i am begining to see that perhaps she wasn't good for me. I am still confused has to how anyoe could do this to some one else. She doesn't see how she has participated in hurting her family and his. boy the fog is thick for them well only 7 months has passed since D-day and I know that is not along time they are still justifing what they have done to there selves. I just needed to say these things and thank everyone for being here, I keep you all in my prayers since I know your pain. thank you all for helping. I will be reading here for along time to come.

jabber,<P>Ya know, I think we actually have to sink even a little deeper AFTER the divorce, before we start rising up again. I go on spurts of not caring at all for my X to sitting there missing her for a whole day at a time. For lack of a better word, it sucks...<P>But I think that what we are experiencing is normal - I think it is the WS's who just seem to "forget" about everything and quickly move on, that are the ones who are only fooling themselves.<P>Hang in there!<P>God Bless,<BR>Mike<P>------------------<BR>God always waits for the right time to do the right thing in the right way.