My H got the summons today. Phones me, asks if we can talk about it. I said what does he want to talk about? He doesn't agree to terms. I asked what do you want. He wants basically the only things of any value in the freaking house. I am so pi$$ed off. I am angry. I am hurt. He says the thing that hurts him is that he gets nothing after 7 years of marriage. EXCUSE ME? He is hurt? over material things? He had an affair, he went on drinking binges, he wanted his freedom. And he is hurt? I am hurt, over the loss of person I wanted to be with for all eternity. That I was so afraid of dying that I would not be able to find him on 'the other side'. I wanted to have children with him. I grieve that loss, and he grieves material possessions. Oh give me break. Give me strength. Give me a plane ticket to get as far away from my life as possible. I cannot remember feeling this angry before.<BR>He phoned last night - threatening me. I must bring tapes to work for him so he can come collect them, I told him I will not as he is making it difficult for the sheriff to get hold of him. He says he will come break down my door for the tapes. I didn't say he can't fetch them from the house... <BR>Phones again later at 9pm and wants sympathy 'cause he is sick. Tells me has his own place but doesn't want me to know too much he says. As soon as I tell him this is what he wanted - his freedom etc, he puts the phone. It seems he can't take the truth. Or is actually scared to be without me? I hope he feels just a little as lost as I feel in the world right now.<BR>... the ramblings of a mad woman....<BR>... thanks for letting me vent...