Most of us get "junk" e-mail all of the time. I rarely even read the stuff, I just delete it. Today I opened what was for shure to be just another joke or pass-it-on e-mail and to my surprise it was a wonderful note from a friend! So I am sharing it with all of you below:<P>May today there be peace within you. May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be. "I believe that friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly." <P>Michelle

How wonderful and true, too. Glad you decided to post again, e-w-s! How's it going?

Hi Nina Too:<P>I am glad to be posting again too. I missed all of you a lot! It is going pretty well. My H has really done a big 360 since Friday. I don't know how long it will last, but for sure I am not going to push anything. He says he wants to try and make "us" work. That he has really missed me since I pulled away, moved to the other side of the house, etc. He seems to be really trying to communicate with me and tend to my needs some what. Of corse, I am very scared and hesitant. I don't know if tomorrow he will change his mind again and the roller coaster will start all over. But I am very happy to have what seems like the man I new for 10 years. I have really come full circle in the last week too. I have finally forgiven him and "HER" for that matter. Friday was such a nightmare and I am still not sure why he did what he did. I am just afraid to trust him again. ALso, I know for sure I can not handle the roller coaster again. If he does go back down, I am pretty sure I will get off for good.<P>Michelle

EWS (Michelle?)<P>Wow, I am so glad for you!!! Go with what is happening NOW. It's great that you feel you have forgiven him because that is the real start of healing. Now you really keep up that Plan A stuff, but STILL keep up yout reserve, because Plan A tells us to do it without expectations...that is, you do your best for you, and if he goes along with it and reciprocates, great. He's doing that now, so well, well done!!!<P>Just two days before my H left, I decided to forgive his A completely, and I told him so. This was when things changed for him. I think he couldn't handle my forgiveness because he couldn't forgive himself. Think about it, it's overwhelming to know you hurt someone the worst you ever could, and they can actually forgive. I astounded MYSELF for being able to do it, but it was just dragging me down, influencing my every action, and so I let it go. Unfortunately I really believe he couldn't handle it. Believe it or not, I STILL forgive him that transgression even though he left me. And so even in the worst, worst part of my life, I can still move on. It's only early days for me, but I know whatever happens I will make it. I hope I am as lucky as you!<P>Take care.<P>Oh and the trust thing....while I forgive him, I still felt it was going to take a lot of time to get that back, it takes a lot of courage to let that one go, and I wasn't given quite enough time to do it. So now I am wondering what he's up to while he's gone......oh well!<P>Jacky

Thanks Nina Too. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Your H may wake up some day and say "What the hell have I done?" You seem very strong and are doing a great job holding together.<P>Michelle

Michelle, I'm hoping! But you never kow what the future will bring, and so I am preparing myself for both eventualities. No, I'm not together all the time, but today is a good day, only the second I've had since he left two and a half weeks ago. But I have to hold up, I've got three little faces watching me!<P>Thanks for the thoughts and prayers.<P>Once again, good luck!<P>Jacky<P>

Michelle, that is great news! <B>Good for you!</B> I'm sooo happy for you! Keep up the good work! God bless. -Mike

Thanks Mike. I am happy too. Did you ever get the e-mail I sent you? Just wondering why you did not reply.<P>Michelle