Wonder , <P>Oh my ! I guess it's much too late to appologize ? But I will anyways seeing that I owe it too you. I am very very sorry . I have not walked a day in your shoes and have absolutely no reason what so ever to lash out at you like I did. <BR>You know the real reason is that I am just a B**** . and I would not want to walk in your shoes because you have suffered quite a bit of pain the kind of pain i would not ever wish on my worst enemy. I don't know why i posted you such childish crap. Maybe because your right I do have problems ALOT more than I'd like to admit. If you don't accept my appology I understand , and don't blame you one bit . I bet you are a wonderful person and deserve the best life has to offer ! ! !<P>sorry!!<P>Mishi

This forum is here for all to post and recieve support and sometimes criticism. You all need to step back and not take everything as a personal attack. We can never know the whole situation from what is posted on a board. I'm sure our spouses would paint a different picture than what we've portrayed here. There are at least three perspectives to any situation; yours, their's and the truth. And my perspective is just that. Use the opinions you like, discard what doesn't fit.<BR>Good luck, Mike

mike, good point!

Mishi............<P><BR> I except your apology. I am a very giving person but I to don't like to be attacked. Like you said no you have not walked in my shoes. Nobody has. I would not want them to either. I am just lost as a women guess best way to say it. I think alot of lose sight of a marriage when kids come along But then other things like drinking and that add on and we.thats how life is suppose to be. Until we take a look later and see what we are really doing to each other. Its not good. I commend anybody who has been married for years and still have that glow look for each other. I actually get jealous when I am out and see that. I never thought in my lifetime my life would be like this. Guess none of us do. Mishi I aplogize also I am not a hatred person I do know that much about myself. But I will stick up for what I feel is right. Well all hang in there chins up. See ya soon.

Wonder, <P>I am actually really surprised that you accepted my appology, Now I know that you are all woman. Can I be honest with you about something? Okay here it goes you know this is going to sound NUTS but its the weirdest truth. I feel like i can talk to you because we had 'words' , you know thats one thing about me that everybody knows me for and thats my tongue. I hate myself for having such a ROTTEN temper i don't know exactly what or why but i do have a lot of anger inside of me all the time This is nothing new I have always been the one to blow up when someone says something "I" don't agree with or like and when it's all over and done with i go home after embarassing them and cry because i was such a horrible person. <BR>So Thank you for accepting my appology , because last night when i went to bed , I thought of you and realized that i possibly could have HURT you or made you upset and I don't even know who you are, Take care wonder and know that it was you who made me realize that I have got to work on myself to become a better person like you.<P>mishi<p>[This message has been edited by mishi (edited May 26, 1999).]

Mishi............<P><BR> May I ask you something now? Are you male or female? I am not really sure on it if don't mind me asking? Well thank you for the last post it was really nice. I wish I could better myself like you think I have but its hard right now to think that way of myself. I take great care of myself on the outside but inside I don't know how anymore. Maybe you understand that. If you would like to post some of your inner thoughts I would be happy to read them. For some reason I think you are burying alot and like me it will eat you up if you don't talk about it. This forum is great for this stuff. We do care and we do listen. I try not to judge well till i read your firsts posts to me LOL but usually I read and give my thoughts or feelings. Its nice to maybe give some help to someone else in here on your own thoughts. Understand? Well take care all time to head and lets keep supporting each other. You never know when one of us will come back here one day and say hey I am really happy with my life again. Huggs to you all :-)

Wonder, <P>I am Female , my husband is male LOL . you never know these days huh? well your right i do understand how you don't really know how to take care of yourself on the inside, my father was the back bone to my family he owned his own small business and made ends meet , when dad died i was more angry at him for leaving us in such a rut that, well you guessed it I went into denial and believed that GOD and HIM were very selfish. It took me a long time to accept his death and realize that God took him to a much better place, and that finally he was at peace .( you see my point?) with me for some reason anger and hate first , then its pain and loss? basically i live day to day and feel like I have no more time for anything or anyone pretty sad huh?, I do thank god for my husband though , he has givin me a lot to think about in life, the only hope i have is winning the lottery and that is one in a million HEE HEE. Todays as i was driving on the highway i was daydreaming how nice it would be to write you a post telling you that I can Help you get the hell out of your MESS. 'Cause I WON THE LOTTO AND IM GIVING YOU 100,000.00 . yah baby wouldn't that be AMAZING , I guess now you also know i am very talented at DREAMING. also i started singing " I WONDER , WONDER WHO-- WHO WHO WHO WHO WROTE THE BOOK OF LOVE " LOL. You know it's been real nice talking with you WONDER.Keep your chin up , and by the way if by chance you read some post's that are by mishi , if it ends with the name kev. that's my husband.<BR>Hope you got a little chuckle out of this post.<P>mishi

Mishi........<P> OMG tell your hubby I am sorry. Cause I kind of cut him on another post that a male wrote thinking it was you again. Tell him I really apologize. He probably wonders what the heck my problem is. Anyways someone telling me they would give me money if they won the lottery. That was such a sweet thought. Yes I know what its like to bury pain and in denial I did for many many years. One good thing though I am still alive and I did open my eyes even though it still makes me wonder why me. I'm sorry about your Dad. I don't know what that feels like because I still have both parents who are great to me. I am glad you have your husband. And yes I know all about dreams because I have so many of them and still don't see any of them. Well not yet maybe I am not suppose to. I pray everynight that God will just take my hand and say here child this is what was meant to be for you. But still nothing there either. Some say behind a closed door another one opens. Well where are those open ones. I have yet to see. Thanks for writing again I am glad you got some of it out and if need to get out more we are here. Take care see ya soon.