Today I had lunch with my wife. Today I had the opportunity to sit down and talk to her, to tell her how I felt, what I was thinking and feeling. Today I had my chance to go for broke. Today....I had an enjoyable lunch with the woman I love, accomplished nothing on my agenda, and went back to work with something resembling a smile on my face. <P>I have been hoping against hope and betting against the odds that there is some chance, however small, to win my wife back. I may not have gotten all I wanted, but I got enough to justify my prayers. I have a little hope and perhaps even a bit of light at the end of the tunnel. <P>As my wife was sitting in her car, I knelt down and told her that I still loved her and that I hadn't given up on us. The look on her face told me that I was starting a conversation she didn't want to have right now so I did the smart thing and switched lanes. I told her that I'm working on my problems and even though I'm nowhere near finished, I sincerely hoped that she'd at least look at the finished product. I gave no time limit on when I'd be done. I told her that when I felt I was ready to say "I'm finished. Take a look.", I would be the first to let her know. She looked at me and told me that she was going to be completely honest with me by saying that she makes no guarantee and no promise that we will get back together, she honestly does not see it happening, but she will keep an open mind and re-evaluate her feelings and see what she comes up with. <P>What do you think? I think it sounds to me as if she is already contemplating things and thinking about me and even missing me a little. If she were so dead-set on filing for divorce, she would do so. She told me that doesn't plan on filing as of right now. That could be purely financial reasons dictating that decision, but I don't believe so. I think she still thinks about us as a couple and wants to give me one final chance to remove my head from my anus...but only on her terms and to her satisfaction. If this is true, if God is giving me a chance to save my marriage, then all I can do is NOT fail. If this could be redemption, then my resolve is hardened. <P>Or...this could be my imagination and my heart playing tricks on me. I could be seeing what I want to see because I can't face reality. It could be my wife playing me and stringing me along. It could be the fact that I am a fool. It could be a mistake. <P>I do not think so, though. Faith is carrying on and believing in something even when there is no logical reason to so so. I have faith.<P>------------------<BR>Don't look back. You never know what is gaining on you.

((((( Wolfen )))))<P>First of all, notice the space in the hug, cause we are guys afterall. <P>Trust me bro, if she was totally through with you, she would of filed by now. Keep on working on yourself and let your actions speak volumes and keep your words silent. <P>God speed.<P>------------------<BR>Love, Bill<P>-There are none so blind as those who refuse to see!-<BR>-Stand up and do the right thing, even if your standing alone.-

take it slow and let her come on her own don't push. Sounds like you are moving in right direction.<P>