I hate this late nite stuff. I better get used to it though since this baby will probably be awake all nite...LOL<P>Anyway I have been reading the archived boards looking to see if there is anyone else out there in the similar situation as me and I have not found one. I have also appreciated the responses everyone has given me and the support.<P>When do you know to just give up. I want so badly to e-mail my STBX...but, I just can't. The last e-mail I recieved from him was hateful and mean. I just do not want to go through that right now. I will be speaking with him shortly I am sure...if he cares to know when this baby is born. How do you face them when you have not seen them in so long...or when you know they want nothing to do with you and it hurts you because you do still love them?<P>"Why is it that the only one that can stop you from crying is the one that made you cry to begin with?"<P>I miss him dearly and only wished that he felt the same way. I need to move ahead but, I have yet to find that strength.<P>Thanks again for listening...<P>K

Hi K,<P>Sorry no-one was awake for you.<P>Have you looked at the pregnancy/child forum board? I'm sure they will have someone in a similar position.<P>I am so sorry you have to go through this time alone. I can't imagine what it will be like for you. Do you have a close family member or friend who can be with you during baby's birth?<P>I know the feeling about wanting contact...I want to write to my h about a lot of different things. But he doesn't reply when I have, and sometimes that is more hurtful....a complete lack of emotion, at least yours has some feeling there or he wouldn't get so angry.<P>I hope you are having a better day, and get lots of rest now.<P>Are you living on your own?<P>Take care.