Thank you so much for your response to my post. I just get so upset sometimes and it is worse around holidays. No where to go and no one to see. I miss so much about him and I wish I knew why. I can see so much good in our relationship and all he sees is the bad. I am always thinking he must of found someone else and that is what makes this easy for him. I do not know anything about him anymore. He lives two hours away and I do not go up there often...to close to delivering this baby to have to make it back here. LOL. <P>Sometimes I look at other peoples posts and think do I want to do this for the rest of my life. He has told me over and over that he does not want me in his life and that will never change unless he wants it too. And his perogative is that people do not change. He thinks it is impossible.<P>Sorry I just realized I am ranting again. Thank you so very much for being there. You take care of yourself. Oh yea I looked at the pregnancy boards but all it seems to be is affairs and pregnancy so I feel awkward posting there. Maybe I should give it a try though. Thanks again.<P>K

(((((((((((((K)))))))))))))))<P>I looked on the preg/child forum too, and yes, they all seem to be regarding affairs...well I suppose that's logical, considering the site!<P>I had asked you if you were living by yourself, and if you have anyone to support you with the birth....<P>We all feel just like you, the marriage was good, believe me...it's just their way of justifying what they are doing. It stinks, but we become their scapegoats. And I am mourning the loss of my beautiful man, because he was a terrific guy, great dad. And now I don't even recognise him. It's like my h died, and someone else took over his body.<P>I know this doesn't help you feel better, but it may help you to know others feel just like you, and we are always here to give comfort.<P>Take care!<P>