felt bad about signing D-papers, kept thinking maybe I should have given H more time, H said EA affair was all it was but found out it was more & she wasnt the only one, still tried to make our marrage work, 3 months later H starting acting like before, going to work 30mins early, takes 5mins to get there,he needed a cup of coffee & to talk with 2 friends, found out from clerk its was 2 females one was lover, been going on since he came back, why do they come back & say they want to start over? I didnt even cry maybe Ive cryed out all my tears, was really mad, when he left told me he loves me & it was me that didnt try, why cant they tell the truth? A was on City Police time, H was home during off work hrs, gave up 17yrs marriage, been busy painting home wanted brighter colors for our 12yr old son, it will take up to 6 months to get out of this mess.

Wow misst,<P>I can feel your pain, and I wsh i could wave a magic wand and just make it all go away. But I can't.<P>What I can tell you is that you WILL get better, yes you will, even though I can see you shaking your head at that. And while you haven't cried outwardly, you are crying inside all the time, aren't you? Yes we know, it is hard. <P>((((((((((((((missty)))))))))))))))))))<P>I haven't seen your posts before. Were you posting somewhere else? Or has it been a while? Would you like to try and update us on your story, so we can offer some advice? You are in a caring place here, we all know what it is to feel your pain.<P>Tell us more if you can, so we can understand a little more.<P>We are here for you.<P>