last week some time i realized that my 16th wedding anniversary was coming up. it's 10/5... but i kind of put it out of my mind. then this morning when i was talking to my boss about his wife's birthday, i realized i had her birthday crossed with my wedding anniversary. OMG it's tomorrow. <P>i have been waiting for our divorce to finalize, which could be any time now. i just don't know how i feel. i don't know how i will feel tomorrow. i am a little fearful. i still love my stbxh very much, but i don't feel the gut wrenching pain i once felt, but when i crawled into bed last night i felt exceptionally alone.<P>we had another date last night. we went to the movies. we had a nice time. i am so confused i just feel like pulling my hair out because i'm not sure how i feel. <P>my stbx still stands his ground on wanting to reconcile, so he says, but i feel that he has way too many issues for us to be happy together. he needs some counsling and is unwilling to get any. i don't know, i just don't know. i feel crazy!!!

How did it go ?. Did you send him a gift & get another date ?. Mine is comming up 10/15 and I know I won't get any ... but I will get her a nice gift ... I am in plan A.<P>Hadi