Hi All,<BR>Yes, the boyfriend saga continues. Well, as of 4:00 pm we are now officially broken up. I know in the long run its a good thing. I know it was a relationship with disaster written all over it but it still hurts. Its like living a flashback of the Ex and I. <P>You know I guess with happiness comes hurt and he did make me happy. There was just to many other circumstances standing in our way.<P>Oh well hopefully someday I will find what I need. <P>JIll

((((((((((((JB)))))))))))))))))<P>I have been following your story and I am sorry you are in pain.<P>I think that you did what you had to do; things sounded like they were going to get a bit complicated, and who needs that after all?<P>See how much you have learned from here? You picked up that this relationship was not going to be ideal, and you acted accordingly to protect yourself. Too many times we go into these things with our hearts first, and that is what gets us into trouble.<P>I admire your strength.<P>Love and light,<P>Jacky

Jilly,<P>I am so sorry you are hurting.<P>Just when you are starting to mend. But if anything this did prove there is life after divorce.<P>I really think you did the right thing in this and saved yourself a lot of grief down the road. But for now.....grrrrrrrr it hurts.<P>((((((hugz))))))) <P>-Kat-

Thanks Nina and Kat,<P>Yeah it was the right thing to do. Kind of a mutual decision I think. I'm just really tired of some women right now. <P>I'm ok, the stitches in my heart broke open a little but they will mend. Hey if I can survive losing a H of 17 years I can survive a breakup of a boyfriend of only 6 weeks.<P>I know I fell to hard to fast and it was probably kind of a rebound thing. Like I said before the relationship didn't stand a chance but that doesn't make it any easier right now. <P>Just thanks for your support,<P>Jill

Jilly, <BR>Wrote this poem this morning, well actually must have written it while I was sleeping because when I woke up it was all there..<P>Anyways it seems to apply:<P><I><B>EMOTIONAL STORMS</B></I><P>She tries to navigate <BR>as emotions crash against her brain<BR>Eroding her beaches of <BR>self confidance.<BR>She listens intently <BR>for the calm ticking of her heart<BR>Only to be rewarded <BR>With Screams of agony <BR>From Fear, rejection and hurt<P>She tries valantly <BR>to not load the guns of<BR>revenge and retaliation<P>As she tries to sail<BR>through the emotion filled waters <BR>of love.<P>-Kat-

Well, I've been where you're at... yes it still hurts. That is when I swore off marriage all together. You're heart will heal from this. I guess this is a learning experience for all of us. I'm sorry for your pain.<P>What a great poem Kat wrote.<P>Peace be with you....<P>Scoick

Beautiful poem Kat, I'm copying it down.<P>Pretty much how I feel right now.<P>Jill

((((((((Jill))))))))<P>I know it's hard. It was hard for me breaking up with my rebound boyfriend, but it was something we both knew was coming, and didn't want to face.<P>Dating is hard. You have to bring so many other people's emotions into the mix when there are divorces and kids involved ... it's no longer a matter of two people who like each other ... between my ex and two kids and my boyfriends ex and one child, we have a handful of potential problems every time we do something together. But it has gotten easier. My boyfriend is thankfully not involved in a divorce (I was the one who had not finalized when we started seeing each other - although it was most definitely OVER it wasn't official) and if his ex wanted him back, it would probably be more than I could take right now.<P>Take care of Jill. The rest will come in time. [img]images/icons/cool.gif" border="0[/img]

You know I think the hardest part of this is the addiction. I guess I never realized how addicted one can get to the "new love" feeling. Not only the feeling but hey we talked on the phone everyday for at least an hour. We spent every spare day off with eachother ect. I feel like a alcoholic who is on their way to treatment knowing they won't get to drink anymore. <P>When a person is young and in love you don't realize it but now that I'm older its almost scarey. <P>Its going to be really hard not to call him tomorrow. God, give me strength!<P>You know my life would be a whole lot easier if my Ex would have just stayed home.<P>Jill

Jill,<P>I am sorry for your pain. <P>Sometimes (actually often) I wonder if there really is any upside to "in love".