Athena,<P>Ok...so how has the week been... time to check in. This is the first time I've had to check in to see how you're doing. You've not emailed me, so I can see it's not been critical...but I want to remind you...you are not alone. And I am in the Poconos region... <P>I'll be looking for you somehow...I'm concerned to say the least. Please keep your chin up...and keep posting.. don't isolate..it's easy to do when you're hurting, believe me I know.<P>God go with you and keep you and give you His peace!<P>Blessings!<BR>Ramy

Oh god Ramy....maybe subconsciously I wanted to hear from you......to bring me into this site today.....<BR>Let me try to get my thoughts in order, enough to make sense....I'm sitting here completely devestated & half in shock, and don't know my left from my right hand......<BR>Things haven't been half bad since last I posted.....a few smart remards here & there, but nothing I can't brush off easily anymore & not be effected.<BR>In fact, for the last few days, H has been extremely loving (more like lustfull). Note: Through all the research I've done, I've finally put a name to what my H is (or at least the majority of his problems)...."A Sexual Addict", mostly internet porn, mags, etc.....so far nothing with live people (as I know of yet). There's alot more detail involving this aspect, but it would take me 10 pages to write it all.....please take my word for it......He fits "Sexual Addiction" to a tee! And that's been alot of root to our problems.....including his anger, temper, etc., And as always, as any "SA", they constantly "promise" to behave themselves, whether it's sincere or not, only they know, as recently he has......AGAIN. Basically, deep down inside, he doesn't even acknowledge he HAS a problem, let alone do anything about it. So he says these things for my sake.<BR>Early this morning, he left for a small business trip, doing new boiler inspections in Austin. He gave me free reign to his computer, knowing I'm trying to work out a (home) networking problem we're having. And as also a way for me "to see/believe" he has nothing to hide anymore (that's easy to figure out)......except........<BR>I needed a few empty floppy disks, so I borrowed some from his collection (that he always gave me permission for). But before I formatted anything....I wanted to see if they were as empty as they appeared to be........they weren't!<BR>Here comes the devestating part....<BR>One floppy contained good old fashion naked women.....(I had that ol'kick in the stomach feel once again, but maybe deep down inside kind of expected it...knowing him & his lies)......<BR>The second floppy was filled with really digusting stuff! At first, it didn't even sink in......until I wanted to throw up from the thought!!!!! I'm even crying now as I write this (( I could at least give the benefit of the doubt, if it was just a internet cookie I found (sometimes we all fall into xxxsites very accidentally), but how did these pictures wind up on a floppy from back in 12/98 (the modified date)??????? That was NO accident!<BR>These disks were made to look empty....no label, no writing on them...nothing to suspect......<BR>And now all I keep thinking of, is him. How he's in charge of inspecting all these SCHOOLS, public & private....thinking, him making love to me, but never looking at my face, just "my parts"....I'm so sick to my stomach/confused/devestatingly hurt....I have no idea what to do, where to turn, who to talk to.........<BR>Oh god, I'm hurting so bad I can hardly type...and the brunt of all of this hasn't even come full blown yet! All this happened 'bout an hour or so ago.......<BR>I'll talk to everyone later....I can't right now<p>[This message has been edited by Athena_TX (edited August 25, 1999).]

ATHENA....<P>LISTEN TO ME... possessing that kind of pornography and possibly trafficking in it is a federal crime.... contact an attorney immediately!!! It's tantamount... do it now... I know you're in pain... and I'll be here for you. <P>Take the disks to the attorney and tell them that you uncovered them while doing routine maintenance on your husband's computer..and tell them you are concerned. Do what the attorney advises you to do. You don't want to be held as an accomplice to your husband's actions. If you are really concerned, there are national toll free hotlines that you can call for advice...they are listed in the front of the phone book. I would get out if I were you and get safe... I'm here...I'll wait online till I hear from you. I understand how devastating this type of discovery is.<P>I want you to email ASAP...lamblfr@epix.net<P>Please know you are not alone. Something told me to check in on you... so I'll wait for a reply one way or another!<P>Ramy<P>[This message has been edited by Ramy (edited August 24, 1999).]<P>[This message has been edited by Ramy (edited August 24, 1999).]<P>[This message has been edited by Ramy (edited August 24, 1999).]<p>[This message has been edited by Ramy (edited August 27, 1999).]

Athena...<P>How are you doing now? How are you coping??<P>I'm still here...<P>Ramy