Dang! I feel so blah. Not really depressed i dont think but passionateless. I have not done art for a long time. i lost my sexdrive and still havent gotten it back since being off the pill. It is not that I have lost my passion for Roy- I cant even think of other men when I try!<BR>Roy has started to complain that I am not affectionate. I just feel so fake and blah. I wish I would be more affectionate but I really dont know how. My parents smothered me in affection and it was all fake. My foster mom was the opposite but the love she did show was genuine.<BR>I am sick of my job- been doing telephone surveys for a year. Trying to find a new one. i am in college taking chemistry and algebra. My algebra teacher is the school's worst- my advisor told me not to take her!<BR>i dont know how to drive and just when Roy was going to teach me on our stick shift the seat broke so now it is propped up with a cinderblock so he can drive it. He is so tall I cant prop myself up with pillows to reach the pedals. <BR>We do plan to see a counsellor- but they cost money. There is only one place in town that we know of that operates on a sliding scale basis, but I have been there before and their counsellors are not good.<BR>Any suggestions?<BR>Thanks<BR>Jessie

I THINK YOU NEED TO LOOK FOR THE POSITIVE IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP.. YOUR H IS WILLING TO TRY TO HELP YOU SAVE YOUR MARRIAGE.. ASK YOUR SELF IYOU ARE REALLY HAPPY AND WHAT WOULD MAKE YOU HAPPY?