I've been thinking of all the effort I've put forth. For me. I CONSTANTLY read, listen to books on audio,lurk, post, recieve counsel, talk to whoever can offer ( usually my sisters).<p> My w says I'm the man she always wanted me to be. She says I'm great, look great, fantastic dad,etc<p> Says she can see why the family should be together.<p> And she can't stand to say more than 2 or 3 sentences to me at a stretch.<p> And she has betrayed me, totally disrespected me, lies, lies,lies.<p> And says she's looked but doesn't have feelings.<p> And still hasn't admitted to sleeping over om's constantly.

She barely makes time for the kids.<p> And we all work together. ( I'm desperatly looking, what a time for a sluggish economy).<p> Now I'm still in plan A, smokin' it, and she's applauding the changes.<p> And can't stand to hug me.<p> Whew, what a mess.<p> When we went to a MC our church recomnndedin Feb? March? The MC said you guys have a great foundation, you should be outta here in 3 or 4 visits..( my WS said no, I'm not having an affair...)<p>And here we are.<p>I did a B. I caved.<p> Not this time.<p>Thank you