Sorry this has nothing to do with my WS.
What I miss more than anything in the world is a family, you see my 13 yr marriage did not allow me any children (WS did not want any children). I was too involved in the situation to make a change until it seemed too late. Knowing all along that what I truly wanted was a loving husband and a family, i.e. children.
But stupid, co-dependent me, I thought I can change this man, he is good and he will be a wonderful father once he sees the value in family life. Instead he pushed it away with all his might.
I am so moved by readinging Empty Shell's posts about his efforts to communicate with his child, and the major frustration in this effort. I can strangely relate to. I have no child to communicate with, but there is major frustration that there is NO child to communicate with, only mine is so final. <p>And although this is not the only reason that my xH and I are no longer together (other than the xow) it certainly is the one determining factor that we will never be a couple again. Because even though I will be past the child bearing age in a few years, it will always be a factor between us. <p>Sorry this has absolutely nothing to do with Marriage Building, but I have come to love you all and feel that this is my "extended" family, even though all I do is lurk and ocassionally post. I needed to do a bit of venting.
It certainly doesn't sound like A Stronger Me but right now I'm hurting because the one thing I hope for most in the world seems the farthest from my grasp, ...a child...<p>My heart prays for you Empty Shell, I know you love your child too.