Wow! My ex-wife is definately one of the best people that I have ever met. Smart, intelligent, goal orientated, just an overall good person. We have been divorced since June 30, 2001. The divorce was quick, because we did not really have much assets to divide. I was in shock, when she asked for divorce. I knew things were not that great, but it went this way.
We were in the process of building a home. Here we are 21 years old, purchasing the American Dream. We started off as High School Sweethearts falling in love, it was the greatest feeling. Since we had to save money we moved into her parents house while our house was built. Privacy was lacking to say the least, they are a great family, don't get me wrong, some of the nicest people that I have ever met. She asked for divorce, saying that I was not what she wanted. I have made mistakes drinking to much, and what built upon the question of divorce had alcohol involved. I went out with my wife and her best friend and boyfriend. We were at a bar, and I told my wife that I was going to go to another bar with her best friends boyfriend, and stay out later than her. Needless to say, I got drunk, didn't come home with my wife, stayed out with best friends boyfriend. I made a huge mistake by not going home with my wife. Now we are divorced. I never imagined divorce in our future, never, I just don't believe in it. I think if your married that is your partner for life.
But, since we are on this discussion board, we know that this is a false contract that we enter into. One, which we take advatage of or are taken advantage of! I took an advantage of a wonderful person, one that I miss more than I really can describe. We haven's spoken since August. It has been so hard, not to dial those simple numbers, and just say Hello, I mean this was wife, my bestfriend. I am completely in a daze of life. This divorce hit me so hard, I am numb now! I know that this has been lengthy, and if you made it this far, then you are like me divorced, almost a synonym for alone. I mean that is how I feel right now. I am angry, scared, determined to make it, but most of all I feel alone [img]images/icons/frown.gif" border="0[/img] I just wish I could talk to her, I made the mistake of saying that I did not want to be her friend, after the divorce. Since that day, nothing, no conversation. No Hello's, It is disgusting how you can go from be married, best friends, to not even acquaintaces. But this is what I am dealt, from God, and I still love this girl, and miss her more than anything, but I don't really think that she is feeling what I am feeling. That might be the hardest thing to deal with. I know that my wife loved me, I know that she did. I know that I also made mistakes, that were totally out of line, mistakes that are hard to forgive, but we were married! What do I do now. I want to talk to her but I am afraid to.
