I can tell you are in a lot of pain.<p>Perhaps we can help you here. It might be more effective for you to start a new topic to give us your story and let us get to know you or even to ask a question.<p>I'm so sorry that your life is such that you feel you need to be here but I am glad that you have found us.<p>If you will check the "Just Found Out" or "General Questions II" bulletin boards you may find some threads that will help you understand the principles of Marriage Builders and the abreviations. Also, do some extensive reading throughout the site to learn more about the principles. <p>Again, we're sorry you need to be here but glad you have found us.