Thanks to Orchid, JDMac and others who supported me through the rough times. The paperwork finally went through and I am officially 'divorced'. It was just a formality as emotionally I have been divorced for the last few months, and ok with it. I have moved out to my own place, and am happier now than I have been in a few years. WS wants to be friends, and I agreed to let her call when she wants. It does not bother me anymore, since I know I will not reconcile with her anyway, so it causes more grief to say to her I want her out of my life. Anyway, I wish everyone here well and I will check in once in a while to offer support and advice for others.<p>I have found that I do not want to be married to my current ex, but to the woman I fell in love with and married years ago. She is no longer that person, so I was stuck in wanting what did not exist anymore. It is time to forge ahead and find new happiness with another person who will value me as a friend and partner in life.<p>Take care all!

Well God bless you... <p>You sound like you're in a very healthy place. I hope the roller coaster ride is over for you.<p>I can relate to you wanting the person you married and not finding them anymore. Did you file for the divorce or did she?<p>Anyway, all the best and Merry Christmas!

Inde,<p>I just happened by and saw your post. I am happy that you are able to move on. I wish you well in your future life. Are you still in the area?
If you are, there is another MBer (guy) here. You can look up RedHat if you'd like. <p>Take Care bro,
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God is with you. I don't know your story, but it sounds like you fought the good fight. Stand courageous and brave - God is holding your hand and will forge ahead with you.<p>Julia

OvrCs: She filed for divorce and I did not try to stop it. We did not speak even once over the phone during that time.<p>Orchid: I hope you are hanging in there, and if you need someone to talk to don't hesitate to write to me randywwm@hotmail.com<p>Julia: Yes, I can say that I was not the one who gave up, and although it is over, I have no regrets because I did my best to work things out. One person cannot rebuild a marriage.<p>Looking back, I feel a bit foolish after reading how desperate I sounded in some of my posts. But it is truly amazing how far I have come with all the support I received here.

Indecision,<p>Congrats.<p>I wish I will feel the same when it's over. I can truly say that I tried everything to make my WS and myself work things out. W gave up after meeting OM from work. She never gave it a try. Eight months I tried only to be dumped on. I gave her papers last month. I feel bad, but there is so much one can take. I think the same way, which is I hope a year from now I will look back and see how foolish I was at this time. I hurt big time, but life is too short.<p>Dino