Hello Tyra,<p>I don't know if I can help you, but I'll try.<p>My world/life change 10/99... my divorce was final 4/01. You can read the other details at the end of my post.<p>I have been told, that the anger and bitterness that we experience is actually sadness... yes I KNOW EXACTLY what you mean re: the should/would/could etc..... Of how things should have been. I have been so frustrated with myself lately ... why??? Because I think I'm smarter than this... why do I let allllll the emotions control me???? Well, someone told me.. its not a matter of being smart, its because of the many years together and its a matter of the heart.<p>I too believe that God has a plan for us. I can't wait for it to be revealed!! But if you knew anything about me, I'm impatient... I want it now... eventhough I know I must be patient. Heck, I can't stand it when I have presents waiting for me...!!!<p>I"m also going back to school... furthering my education. Yep, its hard....but I'm gonna do it... and so are you!!!<p>I've been able to physically talk with individuals who have been in our spot. That really helps me. Yes, all are comfortable with their lives... all have remarried... yes, they are truly happy with their marriages. I'll be honest, some had a hard time trusting ...(due to the affair their ex-h/ex-w had). But all have been honest to tell their new mates.. that they may at times have a problem with the trust issue and I can say that they have all said their spouse understands. Also, they have all said it takes time.... they totally understand when I'm being whipped around on the rollercoaster ride.
What I hate is when the anger gets ahold of me... WOW... I never thought it could control me like that. <p>I too tried at reconcilation... but like you said no one can do this alone.... I felt like I was walking and talking to a brick wall. <p>I must tell you one thing I've heard from the spouses that we're left behind..... at some point several years later, they have either heard , seen or had some type of sign of regreat from their former spouses. Sooner or later, it will all catch up with them...(boy, and do I want to see that...lol)<p>What is sad, is when I think of the children. <p>Don't know if I helped you... <p>Blessings to you this holiday season...
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