Well its about 130 am and i just got home. I saw someone today that i hadnt seen in a while. Ive been separated for about 3 months now. I havent gone out much. I have been keeping to myself. I dont want to get into a new relationship and so i just kinda hide in my house when i can. Well tonite i went out , got dressed up a little. Not for anyone else , but for me. I just went to a movie with a friend and dinner. I was reaqquainted with the me i used to be. I was so spirited and hopeful. I used to laugh alot and had lots of friends. Driving home i thought to myself, I gave my stbx over 10 years of my life. I am not going to give him any more. For the past few months I felt like i was just gonna die. I dont want to roll over and die. I want the fire in my soul back. I dont want to be miserable. So for those of you , who are feeling very low. YOu will regain your spirit. It will happen by surprise. I almost stayed home tonite, but i made the choice to go. Keep forging ahead, your spirit can become filled with the simpliest activities. Does this mean that i wont be sad again, no. But little by little i will heal. Take care<p>married over 12 years
separated for 3 months/4th separation
2 kids