We've been divorced since July of last year. Had been married for 17. We've worked together for many years and two years ago, he had an affair with one of our employees. We tried to make it work after that, went to counseling for months, and I didn't feel he was doing what the counselor asked him to do. He kept lying to me about little things, I'd find out and that would break down my trust again. Last May I met someone - I fell in love with him. And knew I needed to leave my husband. So I filed for divorce. In the process of that, I found out that the man I met was married. Betrayed twice. Course I got myself into the second one. Shouldn't have gone there, still being married and all, even though in my mind it was over. I got my divorce and the OM and I continued to see each other, as he was "going" to get a divorce. He even came to live with me for a short time, then a significant event happened in his life and he went back to his wife. Guess I should have known - he never was mine to have. Anyway, here it is 6 months after my divorce and my X continually tells me he wants me back. That he realizes he made some big mistakes, that he loves me so much and he wants to make it right. I tell you all this background to say I DON"T KNOW WHAT TO DO. My feelings for my X seem dead. I don't know if I have feelings for him or not. I am so afraid of getting betrayed again. I don't want to go back for the wrong reasons, ie to get some of my fortune back. I lost the business in the divorce, and am at loose ends in that department. I guess I should add that I have been "working" for my X since September (crazy huh!). We get along fine working together, but it's like, I don't really think about him in a romantic way. Does any of this make sense? Sheesh! I am so confused. Please, can anyone that's sane, help me make sense of all this? [img]images/icons/confused.gif" border="0[/img]
