Hi,<p>Im new here...like alot of others I've been just checking the place out(smile)....<p>I never ever thought I would be posting under divorce/divorcing!!!<p>
Well here goes....bare with me my heart is fluctuating from my throat to my stomach, ive been up all night crying and i am at work trying to put on a smile but the tears just keep falling [img]images/icons/frown.gif" border="0[/img] <p>I have been married for nine months, I have been with him 11 years...we have two kids, 7 and 2...I have loved him since the first night i met him...I swear, he was the most intelligent, and humble man id ever met, i was only 17 though [img]images/icons/rolleyes.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Any who.....fast forward last night i pressed redial to a number i had not seen before...her name was victoria...a very nice girl...never got smart or rude. She explained how she had been seeing him on and off since october, and I asked her straight out if they had slept together, she said yes, and that she was sorry and that she did not know about me. she told me she has a boyfriend and that it should have never happend, i suspected he had been out with her, i called her as he was walking in the door, so i asked her if he had just left her and she said yes.....<p>
he lied to me last night, he denied that they were physical, he even lied about where he met her...i asked if it was a club...he said it was a book store.....i called her this morning and she was very kind to me and patient again, (it was like around eight oclock this morning) she told me that they had met in a club, and that he told her he lived with his roomate ....<p>hearing that was like salt on the wound he is such a liar....he could not even respect me enough to be honest once the truth was out...<p>i have not told him that i spoke to her again this morning....<p>I thanked her for being kind and told her i would not contact her again...<p>
now what...I was so hurt, i started throwing up, i feel sick...if i did not have kids i would end it rather than enduring this pain, and now should I walk around with a smile on my face in front of my kids, i dont think i can....<p>I feel like my heart is liquifing in my chest....this pain is so overwhelming .....my God
knowone deservs this.....KNowone...<p>
thanks for listening...i have to go know cause the tears are really falling and i need to go to the rest room to try to compose myself....<p>it was [img]images/icons/frown.gif" border="0[/img]

I am so sorry. Have you read all the articles here on Infidelity? You will find some very helpful info. Here's a good thread to read also...<p>www.marriagebuilders.com/cgi-bin/ultimatebb.cgi?ubb=get_topic&f=29&t=000553<p>You may wish to post under the infidelity area...<p>Hugs--<p>Kathi

Dear {{{glass}}}
I'm so sorry you've found yourself here. Please copy and repost under the infidelity forum General Questions II. You will get more responses there. The fact that your H had an affair does not necessarily mean your marriage is over. Most of us here have suffered through the pain you are feeling. Although I'm not one of the survivors, there are MANY here who ARE. Don't do ANYTHING while you are suffering these terrible emotions. Read as much as you can on this site. There is much help here from the people that post and from the Harleys. Please read all you can, step back and breathe. You can and WILL get through this. My prayers go out to you.<p>MOM