Oh God,
what else can happen.
Was all that not enough?
This morning my mom's gynecologist phoned me and told that my mom had to go to surgery cause of vulvar CA.
She is 77 as suffers from hard tromocytopaenia and every surgery is dangerous .
I have no other relatives except parents, no brothers sisters, uncles, nephews...my parents were only kids of theirs.
So how now?
If some meds would be necessary neither them nor me has money-in our country financial situat is hard.
How to help her.
My mom is devastated with all that maa cause she loved him almost more than me , taking him like son.
Please pray
Right now I wish him to happen something like that, something realy bad to happen to him, his baby ,his parents and to be left alone with that
i can't stand that any more

This is so bad for you. I just lost my dad through cancer, lymphoma cancer in the sinus cavities. Jan 2, 2002. Seems like you are going through so much for a human to endure. Find counseling. I know you want something to happen to her, but the baby deserves to live, this baby was not created out of love, it was created out of lust. It isn't the babies fault, it will probably become a statistic of one parent. Affairs that develop into creating babies, don't survive. I feel sorry for the baby. My H is the WS and had sex with a woman that doesn't have any morals. This is her second sexual affair and possibly a third. Talked to H about if she were pregnant and he said he would leave me and marry her and raise their baby. The marriage would not survive, but I feel he thinks it would of survived with all the manipulation she did and the coercing of suicide she did to me. <p>As for your mom, be there for her. Tell her that you love her. I was with my dad through the final breath and I told my dad that I loved him all those moments. I held his hand when I was able to hold his hand. Then all I could hold was his head and stroke his head and kiss him during his last few days. Do you guys have hospice out where you live. We had Hospice in my parents home, dad was in a hospital bed in the family room. We had a hospice nurse that came every day, and an aid to do the personal hygiene. Hospice is a great society to help families with terminally ill family members to die in dignity.

{{{{{{BAD}}}}}}}<p>I'm sorry to here of your mom. I'll be saying prayers all day for you..<p>I will say this, though. It appears that you are moving to the anger stage in regards to your XH. This is a good thing.. <p>I think you said you were/are an athiest. I'm not and I believe that God doesn't load you up w/ more problems than you can handle. It will all work out.. Trust me it'll work out.<p>Tex.

Even OD shows signs of earlier diagnosed autoimmune disease (can be serious, till now fortunately was not) and deeply scared I immediately made an appointment for very expensive laboratory control tests (mostly would be made by a colleague on insurance) but she hardly refused to go cause"I didn't ask her, she is busy, who cares....)
And we had a huge fight-the conclusion was: She would leave me , I am hysteric, YD would go also, and I decided to send papers about OD 's disease to him by regular post-let him take care of children. He has legal custody on her.
I can't beg someone to go to the doc, i did what i could.
I am left completely alone with mom's illness. And i can't bare any more

Hey B&D!<p>Even though I have not posted for a while, I have been following most of your story. I am deeply sorry about your mother's condition. I am sorry you have to deal with this on top of other pain. I know that you are going through so much emotionally right now. But listen to me... you are a wonderful person! I know how desperate you feel at times... but don't let those feelings take control of you. Your life is worth living. I think I read that you might be athiest (I might be wrong here and if so, I am very sorry for making that assumption). If this is so, maybe God has a plan - a plan to bring you to him, because you can't do this a lone. God may need you for something really special, but you have to speak to him and ask him for help. (Believe me when I say I am not a good Christian, and sometimes find it difficult, but I would feel even more lost if I don't have God to talk to when things just become too unbearable) So please try this.. <p>Please know that you can cope without your XH. I was a person totally dependant on my XH, but hey I am still around, battling some days and some days are easier, so if I can do it, you can!! <p>Best of luck! <p>Pantha

I am so sorry to hear about your mother and the kids. This is a really rough time for you. Life can sometimes be so difficult. We are here for your though...please know that. <p>Try to keep focused on the good in life. It is hard, I know. Take care of yourself---and try to do something good for you. Take care.