I know I haven't posted in a long time...I have been extremely busy with work...Like that is an excuse anyway...LOL<p>
Ya know this back & forth thing puzzles me. For those of you who know me you probably know what I am talking about. Well I said in my last posts that he would be coming out in December b/c of our son's b-day. Well he did and the usual happened. We were intimate, again, this always happens anyway to make a very long story as they always are short. He has been seeing someone(he met her on the net as well and she lives in Texas) he'll be flying out there this next tuesday 02/05. I had been seeing a long time friend of mine aas well. To complicate this even more. So the result of him coming to see me is that I am pregnant. I have not told him yet I really don't know how to tell him. We have had some conversations after he left. He first said that that couldn't happen again that he was mad at himself and that it was fair to the person he was seeing. He has always asked what keeps me holding on and later we talked for about two hours and I told him its those things that keep me holding on. I told him that I think he needed to go to counseling he didn't take that the wrong way this time & agreed actually he ask if I was and I told him yes. I have said for along time that he needs to be honest w/ himself as far as how his feelings go. I said b/c we can't have other relationships w/other ppl and keep doing this its not fair to them. I said what if you go to counseling & you find out that he feels differently. He said that he can't go there(meaning trying to work things out) b/c he doesn't want to open himself up to hurt again. He blocks it out & then when those feelings come up thats when he becomes anal. He tells me that when he sees me its hard not to be attracted or have feelings there. But he doesn't want to try. So whether or not to give up or what remains the mystery. We still have the big factor of living so far from each other still me being in Ok & him in Northern Cali. I have a good job in Tulsa right now. So that aspect of things are going really well. The rest of it I am oblivious too......... <p>Anyone have any advice of what I should do now that would be helpful. <p>Thank you,<p> [img]images/icons/frown.gif" border="0[/img]