H called today to ask if he could take kids to show....H asked how I was I was upbeat, and said fine....told him that son said yesterday he didnt want to go...but said that I would check again today with him...he may hve changed his mind. H talked to daughter...d told him she only wanted to go to lunch....she wasnt ready for a movie with him yet...h said ok. She put me back on the phone with him...H said she didnt want a show...he said oh well...I will just take her for lunch. I will pick them up around 1.00 Said fine...whoever want to go with him will be ready. He said ok good then I will see you then. I then said didnt know if I would be here...he seemed a little surprised...but said ok...If you are I will see you then...if your not I guess your not.
Nicely said goodbye...end of conver.<p>Daugheter was wondering...why I am being so nice to him.....(yesterday was a horrible day) didnt even go out. Felt really crappy. Then today I feel a lot better. Toldher that I am going to have good days and bad ones...just let me be. Its normal. <p>Also told her that if he to come out of this mlc...we need to give him sapce and its important for me to act AS IF I am fine....that will get thim thinking. <p>This just seems so crazy...playing games like these with someone I was married to for so long.<p>I dont really want to see him anyhow....it still hurts too much. so probalbe best if i am out when he comes.
Any thoughts ???

I know how you feel. Ive never been much of a game player. NOw i have to pretend it doesnt bother me when he talks about going out with other women, so he doesnt do it to get at me. I am so used to being honest. Im not good at playing games. I guess avoiding him would be the best way, that way you dont have to pretend to act one way or another.