I FORGOT TO SAY IN THE LAST POST I TRIED FOR 5-6 MONTHS TO GET HIM TO TELL ME ABOUT THE AFFAIR HE WOULD NOT. HE EVEN HAD ME CONVINCED THAT I WAS CRAZY AND THAT I SHOULD JUST TRUST HIM.
ALSO WHEN I CONFRONTED HIM HE TOLD ME THAT HE NEVER WANTED ME TO KNOW AND THAT HE WAS ASHAMED AND THAT THE GUILT WAS OVER WHELMING AND THAT HE NEVER WANTED OR MEANT TO HURT ME. HE ALSO TOLD ONE OF THE PEOPLE WHO FILLED ME IN ON THE A. THAT HE DIDNT WANT ME TO KNOW. HE SAID THAT HE HAD GOTTEN LONELY AND HAD FELT LIKE I DIDNT WANT TO HEAR ABOUT HIS JOB AND SO HE TURNED TO SOMEONE . HE STATES HE DID THE CHASING AND THAT THE OW IS NOT AT FAULT AND THAT THE DECISION TO D... CANT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME AND HER THAT IT HAD TO BE ABOUT US AND WHAT HE FELT FOR ME. HOW DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU FEEL FOR SOMEONE WITH THE HAZE OF AN A. GOING ON ??????? OR DO YOU THINK YOU CAN TRUELY KNOW???? I GAVE HIM SEVERAL CHANCES TO TELL ME ABOUT THE A OR TO GET OUT OF THE MARRIAGE PRIOR TO D-DAY WHY DIDNT HE TAKR IT THEN?????????? <p> THANKS THIS HURTS SO MUCH LOSTsoul.<p>[ March 26, 2002: Message edited by: lostsoul ]</p>