I've received my Dv papers, went into a roller-coaster spin for a couple of days. Had to pull myself together again. I've come thus far why go back there.<p>WS was summonsed to increase maintenance as my new ATTY could not believe the measly some of money he was paying me monthly. Had to respond within seven days - to date - heard nothing from him. Well, he decided that this month I must really wait on maintenance, was due the 15th still did not receive it.<p>Both, my DD's is sick with influenza. He phones them and beggs them not to stop loving him. Something goes wrong with my land line it is off for two days, on second day I can see DD's is missing their dad. I let them phone him on my mobile. Tell's 9yo that I am spitefull because land line is off. Yesterday, I left mobile at home so that DD's could contact their Dad. DD's block mobile. OW traces my new work phone number screams at me telling me that I am acting childish and that H loves and cares about his children. I did not utter a word I just put down the phone. Thank you MB. Why must I explain to her what is happening in my house.<p>How do I feel today. Struggling to lift my spirit. Anger which I have controlled for the past months is re-surfacing. Anger at the way he deceived and lied to me. Angry at the way he still wants to blame me for everything that goes wrong. <p>Tonight, my DD's must go to him for the weekend. I am glad because I will be alone to give vent and deal with all my emotions.<p>Being in Plan B has made me a stronger person. I am not on the attack anymore. Even if they attack me I am stronger in handling it. I don't hear anything from them, I don't see WS. I protect my privacy and this must be very puzzling to WS and OW.<p>I am still praying that A dies it's natural death before DV is fanalized but I know I will be fine w/ow WS.