3-18-02 was D date, my attorney filed his papers 4-29-02 just got copy in mail from him he should have done it weeks ago, I released him 3-28 when he didnt do anything I asked him, now I have to appeal to fix the mess he did, have new attorney but he cant do anything til papers are signed by Judge. Called courthouse they are not signed yet, was told it could take months because the attorneys cant agree & since mine was release, it could take a year since I dont have an attorney. my new attorney cant do it, we will have to wait for the Judge, also found out that there is a 30 day cooling off period before he signs so I wont be D til maybe Jun? We are still on the temp. agreement H leaves Military retirement check in bank for us, well he didnt do it this month, had the direct deposit stopped. Had a friend see him a few days ago at a local store, said he looked bad, like he hadnt had any sleep in months, lost weight, looked really old & tired. Had a talk with H a few days ago Called me a name, finally told me he hated me & quit loving me a yr ago, thats about the time H told me he was having A at least he starting to tell me the truth, I didnt get upset already knew the truth but needed to hear it from him maybe now he can start to be honest about the A & stop blameing me. Its just me & my son that I worry about now. H life is messed up its all his fault not mine. while the appeals are going thur H cant get married til they are over, his girlfriend wont be happy about that she is telling everyone that as soon her D is over & the 60 days wait is over they will be Married. I wish them the best hope he gets over the angry he feels toward me. H told me that I hated him, I know that Ive said some things when I was hurting and was sorry for saying them. I hope one day he will forgive me for them just as I have forgave him for what he has done, I told him I still care about what happens to him I dont hate anyone, it has really helped me being in the church, marriage builders has been great told him he should do the same, it took away my angry, I have peace now about him, the D and his girlfriend. I wont let them destroy my life anymore.
