I just pulled out his travel calendar and did the addition - final tally was H has been at home for 50 days during the past 7 months. All other days (163) he was on overnight trips for business.

I ask the question - HOW IS THIS MARRIAGE SUPPOSED TO EVER EVER WORK??????? H isn't even home enough to bond with our children, let alone has a healthy relationship.
<shakes head> I have begged with him to find another job locally, even at less pay (I have suggested moving to a less $ home to make up the difference). But instead of listening to me, he recently signed a 2 year contract without discussing it with me prior. He tells me after its a done deal. (big big sigh)

Yet, H wonders why this marriage isn't picture perfect. H wonders why I could not have possibly been totally content...... UHHHHHHHH content with what????????? Content to be alone when I thought marriage was a twosome thing??????????

Anyway.. just a vent to say what i'm feeling..... Everything seems to be coming to one big giant festering head this weekend regarding life.

Alone and married..... me.

<small>[ July 14, 2002, 08:49 PM: Message edited by: OhMyGoddesss ]</small>

OMG, Hi ! Well you are right and his prioities are not in order. He needs a wake up call but what that might be is up to you, It sounds like he wants the best of both worlds. Marriages need two people to work, that simply is it. Emotional needs must be met, both ways. I know how it feels to be alone, not fun. It might be time to see a MC that might help you reach him. Put pick one that works for you first. If he truly loves you and cares then he will make changes for the good of his family. By the way you have friends here and you are not alone. A.S.