I wouldn't pass value judgments on yourself like that.
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<BR>There is this book i have been desparately waiting to share with someone, and you are definitely it.<BR>I found a link with an excerpt on it once, but i can't find it now ;(<BR>However, i bought it, and it was extremely interesting.<BR>It is called:<BR>THE 91% FACTOR: WHY WOMEN INITIATE 91% OF DIVORCE, END MOST RELATIONSHIPS, AND WHAT CAN BE DONE ABOUT IT.<P>The premise is that women need to "manage" their sexual relationships with their husbands in order to maintain good marriages.<BR>Most of us do well in courtship: we expect a lot out of a man before we give him sex, because, biologically, we need to make sure he can provide for the family that might be created. no flowers=no sex.<BR>But once we marry, we get lazy, and stop putting any demands on him. Why should he give us flowers, when sitting around on the couch all night drinking beer gets him sex, anyway? (so to speak).<BR>Men WANT and NEED for us to put demands on them (no, i do not mean manipulating, and the book is very clear about this).<BR>Betrayers find affairs to be both demanding (tough to 'pull off' without getting caught) and enjoyable, so why not make the marriage that way?<BR>But NOOOOO, we are supposed to give 'unconditional love', which, biologically speaking, rewards him for being a jerk, ignoring the kids, not thanking us for dinner...all that sort of thing. Where's the challenge for him? Where's the excitement?<BR>The arousal of, "will i get some tonight or not?".<P>Let me see if i can find that link for you, and don't go thinking you are doing bad stuff, unless someone is getting hurt (which, i remember, your H is a sadist, so you know all about the policies of joint agreement? protection?)<BR><P>------------------<BR>for better or for worse, in sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer, till death do us part.<P><BR>