I am tired today - was in emergency room last night with D & didn't get home till 2:30am & then it's up at 5:45am !!! I feel like a B&$t@7 today. Crying lots and feeling immobilized. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

Had appointment with attorney yesterday and had some new insights <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

He often advised H's to take the debts from the M, then once DV is final, H to file Bankruptcy so then W is left with the debt (if joint) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" />
I was glad that I asked the question what would you advise my WH to do if he had come infirst.
I was actually thinking that he should take the debts but not now. Attorney also suggested to think about filing Bankruptcy first then DV (or I could always do it later - failing business is in my name)

Today, I have been making copies of receipts of assets. Just in case. This whole thing sucks to put it mildly, it's not what I would choose to do, but I don't feel safe or comfortable with present situation.

There is a lot pounding down on me. I had a job that WH was doing with a nice commission in it, but he's a month late in shipping and the customer is furious (rightfully so) Now the money I had hoped for to use as a cushion is not there. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> WH is so totally out of control and he doesn't have a clue.

Thanks for listening to my VENT. I don't know what I would do without these boards.

God Bless,

D.

WGTT-

I was wodering what the correct spelling of AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH was......... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

You know, we all have one of those days, and I am actually having one too, so may I please join in the vent?

Sometimes you feel like you really want to ask WHY???? is this happening??????? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />

But who knows the ways of God. Although sometimes it seems he has really weird sense of humor. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

Just try and take a quick breather if you can. Know that God is right there with you. Tell Him that you're frustrated and ask Him for His help and peace. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

He'll lead you to the answers you seek.

I'm praying that your day gets better, and that you're able to get some rest!

Remember- you will get thru this. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

K

God is in Control,

and I am actually having one too, so may I please join in the vent?

Yes you may - I did notice though that your vent had all happy <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> or ??? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" /> faces not <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> like mine.

After posting, I felt better. Then I had this "wave" (for lack of better way to describe it) come over me. Actually it was this overwhelming sense that I needed to pray for someone. I did for a few minutes and have no idea who it was for, but knew that I couldn't let this pass.

A few years ago, I woke late at night and had the same urge so I prayed. At that time I felt it was someone cheating. HMMMMMM thought maybe it was H (didn't know about the WH part yet.) I tried to go back to sleep but couldn't so kept praying.

A day or two later, my OS & I were talking, as I could tell he was miserable. He admitted that he cheated on his GF and had told her cuz he felt so bad about it. It happened when I got the urge to pray <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Just try and take a quick breather if you can. Know that God is right there with you. Tell Him that you're frustrated and ask Him for His help and peace.

Thanks. God will provide and I know that. There seems to be a piece of me that looks to WH for financial support and what God is probably saying to me is to look to Him for my financial needs.

In my prayer time lately, I have been hearing "Let go, there is more" I keep praying to let go, what to let go of, and when to let go ! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />

God Bless,

D.

WGTT-

How about this <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" />

The <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> 's we're for you.

I just read that joy is a choice. And that once we decide to live joyfully, everything changes for the better. This is probably the cup is half full theory of life.

So, out call is to live joyfully through the pain. Personally I would rather live joyfully without the pain, but I guess I have to trust that God knows best.

I love what you said about feeling the need to pray. I would get those feelings too. So somewhere somebody is getting those benefits, may be the person who needed prayers was even you!

It's easy to forget that we need to pray for ourselves too.

Keep working with God with the financial stuff. He'll keep talking to you and telling you what to do through the people you meet. It's actually kind of neat how He works in that way.

Sounds like you're doing better - I hope.

K

God is in Control,

Thanks for the <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

I am doing better. There is a quote from Abraham Linclon that goes something like this - We are as happy as we choose to be.

Here's another expression I like - Pain is inevitable, suffering is not.

Today, I am so proud of my OS. He is up with WH working to try to get my project done. He even missed celebrating his 21st BD to keep at it. OS called and was so mad at WH. (I don't blame him) OS wants to come home (Fl) and get out of the chaos where his Dad is. But he is staying for a few more days to finish one part.

Here's what OS said to his Dad - This is a FAMILY problem, it's Mom's job and I am here to finish this part.

Tonight OS said his Dad apologized to him this afternoon <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> OS asked if I had talked to WH, but I hadn't.

God Bless, I've got to go pray with YS & get him to bed.

D.