I have been seperated officially 3 years this coming Nov.( day H walked out) and knew 1 year before that somthing was wrong...My D just was finalized in May.. So now it's been almost 4 years and 85% of the time I am ok..I have a new life. Going back to school. Son settled in new school.
But some times( mostly when the stress of raising a teenage son alone, gets to me!!) I get so angry at Ex. Angry for leaving me to raise this child alone....and for being so far away that he doesn't and won't accept any responsibility for this child..Financial or emotional...
What I want to do is lash out at Ex. blame him for the way I feel...
When I know in my heart that IF, he was really unhappy and missed his son he would be in touch more..If he wanted any part of his old life back he would work on getting it back...Even if it was only to rebuild the relationship with his children...Things like this are what set me off...
the schmuck didn't even come to his only daughters wedding...So see I try to let go of the anger and then when I get mad all the stuff he's done comes rushing back..
Again will this ever end...???
Should I just stop all contact period.....? Not even discuss events happening in the childrens lives...Let him pick up the phone and call them?
tonight I wanted to blast HIM and decided to write here instead..( haven't written in months)
How have any of you dealt with this...
Letting go of the anger...forever????
Tyra

Tyra,
Was just going thru this same thing, was mad at my ex lastnite, <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> and it seems i do fine if i don't have to see him, but we have 2 boys, 9 & 10, so i am forced to face him all the time. I wish i never had to. If I don't have to see him, I seem to be calm, but the minute i have to, all those lists of really awful things he has done to me in the past come rushing through my mind. I can't stand to even look at him, or even hate it when he calls to ask for the boys on the phone.

We were divorced almost one year ago (sept. 25). I don't know when it stops, but i must say, it has got a little better as time goes on.

He is out of town this whole weekend, which i am thankful for, at least won't have to deal with him for 4 days <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />