sometimes the pain gets to be so unbearable that i dont think i can even breath. the act of just getting out of bed and facing another day is so hard sometimes. whether its because your h/w cheated or has a drug problem or alcohol problem etc...its all the same, its painful. the loss of someone you have put your years and love into sometimes feels like its all been in vain (sp?). sometimes i feel like now a days no one knows the meaning of thru thick and thin or forever till death do us part. its easier to dispose of people in your life with a divorce than it is to work on it. or when it comes to affairs they think the grass is greener on the other side and most of the time the pain and suffering it causes the victim isnt even worth it because 9 times out of 10 the affair relationship never lasts. all situations of divorce causes such distruction to people's lives. the only thing that keeps me going is the thought that god is walking this path with me. he is a mighty god and doesnt make things like this happen for no reason. it might take a while to see what its all for but it comes he makes sure of it. when i feel myself giving into those feelings of sadness or depression over what i think is the worst thing in the world that can happen to me (divorce) i turn those feelings over to him. i ask god to take them away and replace them with peace. peace is the only thing i want right now. divorce has so many aspects of turmoil that asking for peace and only peace is what i think makes me keep going. i thank him for the so many blessings he has given me in my life and i know that even thru this terrible path in my life right now he will shine the light for me to follow to a better place. god knows what he does all the time and he gives us signs as to why its happening but we as humans choose sometimes to not see the reason behind it. i cant say that ive ever known anyone who goes thru a divorce including myself that didnt see signs at sometime during the marriage that something was wrong. it just doesnt come out of the clear blue sky but i know im guilty of ignoring it or thinking it will change i can change i can help him (h) change when in fact people dont change at all. its just a matter of being with the right person. being with the person that god intends you to be with. life is a learning process and what ive come to believe is that perhaps this marriage was a lesson for me. ive learned many things about myself thru this terrible thing. and i believe that god doesnt leave us even when sometimes we get angry with him he is still there guiding each and every one of us. just maybe he puts us in this path for us to get to the place he really wants us to be. i dont know if this will help anyone or console anyone else. this is just my personal beliefs and in no way intend to offend anybody. i never thought of writing any of this down and hitting the send button i just wanted to write this for me to see it in black and white. i will send this though because perhaps there is someone out there that will grab something from my thoughts that might help them out.
god bless and may he give everyone that is going thru a rough time peace.

You are not alone. Feel the same way, most of the time. Posting here is hard, b/c you are admitting that you are divorcing and that the end of your M is probably gonna happen.

It is not what God wants, and He hates D, but there are a few escape windows out there for people like us. The good book says so. We will endure and He will bless us. Some of us may be reunited with our WS's others not. But either way we must have the faith that God will give us a much brighter future b/c we have the faith to do so.

That is our hope. That is our claim. I am praying for you.