Hello, Porsche:
Things to look out for emotionally? Wow, emotions will be something which throw some land mines your way during this process. I know, because I am about 4 months further into the process than you are right now.
Look out for guilt, maybe it is just me, but guilt over what I could have done to be a better husband has hit me fairly hard at times.
Regret---The 'what could've been' syndrome. I ran into this quite a bit. The thing is, maybe it could not have been under any circumstances.
Loneliness---make sure to keep up with all of your friends, both in your everyday life and here on MB. The people here WILL become an invaluable source of support and understanding if you let them. You will also be amazed at how many of your friends really shine during this time. Doing this alone is impossible, I think.
Despair---'This will never get better'...I am still waiting for somethings to improve, but I am amazed when I look back on my old posts to see how far I've come.
Inner Strength---You may surprise yourself on just how strong you are....You WILL surprise yourself here.
The biggest surprise and 'emotion', if you will, to be aware of is the amount of growth you will do...you did not have such a growth spurt during puberty as you will have during this time if you choose to do the work.
I am sorry to meet you under these circumstances, but here we all are...you are going to get through this....a good therapist may be invaluable.
Good luck in in all you do,
c++_guy
