10/5...

but the funny thing is i'm not sure if i feel as troubled by this as i thought i would...

i have been living in AZ for a little over a month now. i have made some small strides. i have a job... not great pay, but i like it. i have a place to live. it's with a friend, but i like her and i think me, her and my daughter will be happy together. i joined a church and i am really happy about that. God has really been looking after and blessing me. i have a friend. not a boyfriend, but a guy that is really sweet. we are not serious, but i like him and i think he likes me a little...

i really don't have room to fret over my anniversary, except that tomorrow my ex will be coming to AZ to bring my furniture and my daughter. OMG... that is the part i am fearing... how will i feel tomorrow.

i think that his behavior has caused me to feel this way. i have realized how excessively selfish and self-centered he is. how little regard he has for me and my feelings. he says he loves me, yet he will not come back nor will he let go. he gets in a tizzy when i try to talk about a committment or relationship between us and he gets in a tizzy when he thinks that i am not showing him any love. what a confused SOB...

the only thing about it is, is that now i can avoid his tizzy's by avoiding the issue all together. i'm not sure i really care anymore. but i do feel kind of frustrated at his inability to s*** or get of the pot... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" />

Hi IDS.

I remember in one of your lasts posts you mentioned that you were dating another man? If this is correct, I will hope that you do not get involved in a serious R with this man, and keep it just as a friendship. I don't have to tell you the statistics regarding R on the rebound, so I hope you keep this in mind considering that it seems that you have not lost all your feelings of love for your xH. It would be very sad if any new R you had with a quality man, were marred with unresolved emotional issues from your previous M.

IDS,
I'm not sure how the "Irony Fairies" worked out the delivery date and delivery person for you on your anniversary tomorrow. Don't be too sure your husband won't have at least a little uncomfortableness with the date, too. He may take his cue from you, for that matter.

It's normal to feel all kinds of emotions, like a roller coaster. Every post I've read here about anniversaries say to keep busy...bur you're supposed to keep busy with friends, not your ex! I know it will be more difficult for you because of that. The fact that your daughter is there may provide a buffer for you and him.

When you get time, post afterwards and let us know how it went!