I wish I could call her and just make sure she is ok. I wish we could cry together. Her pain is trememdoes. I want her to know that if I could take away all the pain and suffer for her I would. I so would. Never did I realize what a remarkable wife I had until she is gone. I can be a good husband, I can be faithful to her forever. I know I can. But I blew it. I have to work on me now. I need to find piece in my life, rediscover me. Only then will she see that I am a man who made a mistake.
Typing to resist the urge to call her. God bless her. Heal her heart.