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I hated to read that your are going through he double hockey sticks with your Ex!

Sometimes it seems if it would be better if they just left well enough alone because they just muck things up and don't even see or care that they are doing it.

I'll be saying a few extra prayers for you that you find some satisfactory way to handle what you have to deal with right now.

Please try to hang in there! K

<small>[ November 07, 2002, 10:36 PM: Message edited by: God is in Control ]</small>

Thanks GIIC,

I am just SO SICK of this. I would love to move on and just put this smuck out of my life--but no such luck with the kids.

I am so tired of having to deal with the disaster he created. It seems like it just never ends. Oh well...I hope this isn't the way the rest of my life is going to be. I am really sick of it. I really wish he would drop dead...I want him out of my life...forever. I guess I am venting...but why do the people who do keep their commitments, show their love and support and take care of the family--get burned continuously. Just once, I would like to see him feel the hurt and pain he has put us all through.

I don't know if I can wait until the final judgment day.....

I am afraid I am turning into an angry old discarded women--and I don't like that either. I have to get rid of these feelings...but it is hard when he is such a jerk.

<small>[ November 07, 2002, 11:04 PM: Message edited by: miserynmissouri ]</small>

I know. I know.

(((((((((((((Miserynmissouri))))))))))))

I wish I could do more.

Sending prayers your way, K

miserynmissouri,

Just wanted to let you know I'll be praying for you; for release from the pain and the frustration and the incredible anger that accompanies this tragedy. I totally understand your frustrations. I have found myself in the past few weeks going thro some major 'rage' periods - I feel such incredible rage at my WS and all the WS I read about here who have created such chaos in all our lives. You will NOT end up bitter. Do NOT allow that. When this all started for me (almost a year ago) I was so worried that bitterness would triumph in my life, but I have prayed, and prayed, and prayed some more for God's grace and for God to remove that sin from my life. Not all there yet (by a Long shot!) but I KNOW that with God I will triumph, as will you. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> We can't allow satan to gain that victory as well; he's doing enough damage without us helping him! Hang in there and keep venting, and keep praying. I'll keep you in my prayers.

By the way, do you journal at all? I do at times, and find it is a huge stress reliever for me. You might want to try it sometime. Take care of yourself.

((((((((((((((((miserynmissouri))))))))))))))))))
I have to keep saying to myself " I can do this, I can do this, I can do this " when I feel overwhelmed. Glad the email story helped (on other post)

God Bless,

D.