xmas with son & his friend. Funny it reminded me of the xmas when X was with us. Son always had friends over playing video games, me cooking, then the 3 of us would eat together while X either slept or ate in another room in front of TV. When I look back on our M, I can see X was never a part of our family. X had seperated from us long ago. It was a choice he made. Our son didnt get a phone call from dad for xmas. son has said he didnt want any contact with dad. dad knows this. But deep down inside I know he wants his dad. Would it have hurt X to call his son, just to say Merry Xmas I love you. we moved 350 miles away to another state. should be happy that I have no contact with X & he is no longer in our lives, but I know it hurts our son. X knows he can call & talk with son. not calling will only had more hurt to his only child. son feels dad gave him up to be with OW. Our son ask dad before he left us to stay home, give up MOW & be with him. Dad always did what he ask. son is X only child, cant have anymore, X spoiled him. I dont know this new person X has turned into. X used to be a good father, putting his son first. now X acts like he is a single guy without a child. Ow & her kids come first now. How can you forget about your child? just walk away without any contact. Im not sure if X is feeling guilt maybe thats why he doesnt contact son or if he turned into a person without feelings. X has his new friends, all are M & had A. These people have no family life, they are users. one day X will wake up & see what he did to the people who loved him. X said OW wasnt the only woman he was seeing while we were M. Im sure OW will be cheated on. Ow was seeing others while M. OW X is having problems with her showing up at his house now that he has new girlfriend. she knows she gave up someone who was a good H, didnt cheat on her & is a good father to their 3 small boys. She made a mistake but its too late to redo. I dont understand how X & OW can trust each other, both had A while on their jobs, married to other people. Now that X works in another town how can she watch him or X can watch OW. Ow is still working with the men she slept with. I couldnt live like that. Im glad we moved to another state so both me & son cant see the trash that goes on. Our appeals to al court will be starting soon. still have to go back to court to make X pay what was court ordered he owes $1000 for medical & school. The new year will be better. Ive got to be both dad & mom to a teenage boy. I never thought I would be a single mom again at my age, but Im going to make the best of it. Our new home is filled with love and trust. My son knows that I will be there for him. I will never give up my child for another person.

m-almost 18 yrs
d-5-02
c-13, 29, 8 grd
me-48, x 43

Ow-32
d-7-02
c-3 under 11
m-10yrs