Ive adjusted to being D. Our new life is peaceful unless you mention X name around 13 1/2 yr old son. You can see the angry in his eyes. Son is mad that dad left him to be with MOW. They are engaged our son cant handled that. Dr. said deep down he wants his dad home. We both know that wont happen. 2am got woke up with son standing in my room crying. He is 5'9" tall over 300 lbs. I was scared to death, didnt know what had happened. He had a nightmare about dad. Dad had hired someone to kill me. When he saw the man in the shadows he woke up. He was worried that I would be alone all day tomorrow & something would happen to me. we talked for about an hour, then he went to bed, had to go back to school today. I know he is tired. I didnt tell our son but Ive though the same thing about X. As a cop he tried to have his nurse girlfriends get warrents on me. after loosing that job, he is now a parole officer in mobile, al. just before x left home in may 2001, dr. ask me if someone could be poisioning me, at the time I believed x story about the A just started. told her no. tests could not show why I had numbness in arms, legs, blurred vision, headaches. was left with nerve damage in both hands & arms. yr later I found out that the A had been over a yr. & I forgot that X had me increase my life insurance to 100,000 months before getting sick. X used to bring me coffee from the service stations as a cop, it kept getting thicker & made me sick to drink. X said he would open the front of the machine & stop the water & make it thick. went to the service station to make sure he was telling me the truth, you have to stop the water from the back of the machine. The chocolate power goes into the front. I will always wonder if he put something inside it. 2 weeks after not drinking it, illness went away, except for the nerve damage. was told it is too late for tests. It should have been a toxicial blood test. I have kept this from our son. But always told our son not to drink anything unless he saw dad pour it. Son never asked why. I was afraid he would hurt our child to get back at me. X had made comments he would shoot himself in the head because didnt know who to be with. I was scared for our child to be around him. when son gets home later we will talk about dad & last night. I wish this man would look what he has done to his only child. I dont know how much more our son can take. If X knew about his child having problems he would only blame me. I hope God will not let him be happy with this woman. I want X to feel the pain he has put this family though. Im sorry its long, just needed to vent.

me-48, x-43
m-17 1/2 yrs
c-13, 29, 8 gd
d-5-02

ow-32
m10
c-3 under 11
c-7-02