Paid new attorney retainer fee last night. Cancelled only joint credit card account yesterday. W will probably be served through her old attorney, or between the time she gets home and I get home from work one day soon. She has no idea what's coming.

Even though I've been this far before, the beginning of the end still causes ambivalent feelings. When I DO think logically, I believe this is the best thing for BOTH of us.

Stagnation is NOT good and that is where we were. W trying to bury the lies, me trying to put the pieces together. No trust, even after 1 1/2 years of this. I need to heal and I still don't know what she needs.

<small>[ January 28, 2003, 09:58 AM: Message edited by: doogie ]</small>