I have had a dreadful last two days. I have been trying to do the paperwork for my lawyer for the financial side of my W's divorce.

It has really rammed home the pain, hurt and disbelief of this last year. It's been two days of tears and just wanting to curl up in a ball and have it all go away.

How come the WS thinks that all of a sudden there is this miracle magic money jar - it never existed post A and now here it is.

Here Solicitor (she says ots not her doing) is asking for a lump sum payment, monthly payments, property readjustment (whatever that is), and orders for this that and the other.

How are these forms designed to make it easy? They are just crushing, each and every question makes you feel a total failure and the Villain of the piece. It has made me feel like I will lose everything even after the crushing blow of losing my W.

One day I really wonder if she will ever realise what she has done to us - and more crucially what she has lost.

Neil.

<small>[ February 15, 2003, 05:02 PM: Message edited by: Porsche 4Sale ]</small>