Just found out this afternoon that my mother had a mild stroke. She is in hospital and I am unable to go home this weekend b/c they overbooked me for monday and I may not be able to get off of work until the following week after the hearing next friday with Darth. My mom is stable now. But right side minor impairment, especially her foot. Brain scan confirmed mild stroke. I lost my father three and a half years ago, six months before I had first d day.

Please really pray for her and for me. I have had by far too much loss now. Lost my dad, my grandmother in Dec.00' and now my mother is having cva also. Not to mention losing my marriage.

Darth attempted to call about next fridays' hearing. He is ironically on his way back to the same area (about 30 miles away though) where my mother is. There for business on monday. But think he may be shacking up with Ms. Monkeyho again. He did mention her when he pestered me with some IM's. Always does that when he goes back to my hometown. Shacks up with the orignal monkey herself...Ms. "I am a finalist (or so she claims) on the bachelor Ms. Monkeyho." He asked if I was driving home and if he could watch son or do something. I said it was nice to offer but no thank you. He then goes on to say that his parents, yes his parents would always be there for me and that they get this one--HAVEN'T APPROVED OF WHAT HAS GONE ON WITH DARTH AND HOW OUR MARRIAGE ENDED.

I finally hear from WSTBXH, that HIS PARENTS DID NOT LIKE WHAT HE DID.

At least one itsy bitsy victory there. Albeit they haven't given me any emotional support or been there when I needed a gallon of milk and had only a dollar to my name. But as Darth said, "they are there for you." Yea right...I am sure they are probably ashamed of what he did. And get this--Darth says this one...What a thinker he is! He says, "I would go and visit your mom in the hospital, but I am sure she wouldn't want me to." I said, "what do you think?" He is a mental giant. I was crying silently during the conversation and then he goes back to his "fog" thing about being friends and that he wishes he could be a friend to me and I said that NotONLY DOES HIS PARENTS NOT APPROVE OF THIS BUT NEITHER DID I AND UNTIL THE DAY IF THAT DAY SHOULD EVER COME, AND HE CHANGE THAT I SHALL KEEP MY DISTANCE (PLAN b). I said there were enough things in my own life that I am working on and responsible for now.

I was crying and said "how could I even begin to think I could talk to you. You don't deserve to hear me cry again." That is true. He stole too many of my tears.

Please pray that my personal situation completely turns around. I have been hurt beyond belief and lost so many people that are dear and deeply loved during the last four years that I cannot even bear to express my sadness. But I do and can say that without God, I wouldn't be standing or doing half of the things I am doing today. Just having my son smile and hug me when I picked him up from school today was the biggest blessing ever. It is almost ten pm and I am still in labcoat and scrubs. I am so weary and emotionally spent. And just when I thought I could breathe a little here it comes again...Slam!

(((Peachy)))

So sorry to hear the news. I'll keep her in my prayers - just as I have you.

((((((((((((Peach)))))))))))))))

Hope your mother is doing okay. You have been through so much. I'm thinking of you and holding your family in prayer.

Hi Peachy,

Sorry to hear about your mom. I will keep you and her in my prayers

Hi Peachy,
I will definitely keep you in my prayers.

Take care of yourself, you cant take care of your mother or your son if you let the stress eat you up.

Dawn

Thanks folks. I am also sad because this is yet another crisis that I am enduring without any strong shoulder to cry on or be held by. And I hope that Darth will understand one day what he did. Just one day before I die as an old woman that he will say he was completely wrong.

It is so hard but that has been the way it was. Ever since he began living a life of lies and sin. I remember after my dad's burial how all my family came over to my home. I stayed up all night before cleaning and making it ready. Then after everybody left, I wanted to drive to the cemetery just a few miles away to spend quiet time there and be with dad for closure. My buddy (won't say her name but she is one who used to be on marriage builders three years ago and brought me here when her M collapsed after adultery from her H). She and I were good friends in college and she was there visiting with me helping me clean up and just being there supportive as a friend. I went upstairs to the entertainment room and Darth was lounging up there watching the big screen. He was watching golf. I said to him, "will you go with me to visit dad? I need some quiet time?". I really needed him to be there for me and listen. He had already begun distancing himself and the few absences had begun but I didn't really know the truth then. He said that my friend could take me and that he was going to watch the game. His parents then came upstairs and said they would go and be supportive of me. So off I went with my stbxIL's, and my friend. He stayed home and watched golf when his wife needed him most. That was a very profound moment to me and one I shall not forget. He has never been the same since. Adultery just warps their brains. Makes them become into like monsters I think.

My mother is doing better this morning. She is going to stay the weekend and not probbly be discharged untl midweek. They have her on heparin and she is getting another consult today. I have called her about six ti mes since last night. I hope to go home in a week and a half. Have to give the office time to reschedule patients. I think maybe only another death could allow me some time off. But maybe they would say that I really should ask the near departing if they could "give me an idea about how long they would estimate is left for them so I could get my patient schedule straight"..lol...a dark lol....

Son and I are going to waffle house soon and then home to clean up. I am emotionally spent totally now. And Darth is probably cheating on Ms. F amimly Values with Ms. Monkeyho back home in TN all the while cheating on the wife..But I really don't even count his adultery with them in regards to me anymore. I just see the path he is on. I am removed from it now. He is now gonna give a lesson to Ms. Family Values about how it feels to be betrayed. I have gotta hanf it to Ms. Monkeyho. She is determined. And for goodness sake, why? I am not anymore. I see it and want none of this insanity anymore. I just want out and a peaceful life for son and I...Along with a few nice days where we can breathe and relax. No crisis. Nothing. Just son and I having a quiet weekend together. That would be heaven. No money worries, no stress. I just dream of life being peaceful. I believe I shall have that peace soon. Am praying for it.

My mom btw, is regaining all of her movement but the foot is still a bit slow. They think she will recover fully soon but she will remain indefinitely on the anti-stroke/clot meds. And I do hope they finally treat her for depression while she is there. She still really hasn't gotten over dad and her stress level ahs been through the roof these last three years since he died. I understand how she felt. But she never did take anything to ease her stress or help her get some clarity to the situation. Three years of stress and POW! A mild stroke. I guess I don't understand how I have stayed sane the last three years with all the poo. God has been good to me and like I said, when the d is final and my situation is concrete, I JUST WON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THE SIMPLE GIFT OF PEACE.

Please pray for that for son and I. And pray for healing for my mother, complete healing. Thanks friends.

Dear Peachy,
I just read through your thread and am glad to see that your Mom is improving. Take care.

She is having a cath procedure tomorrow. Has occluded (not sure what percent blockage) of carotid. She is ok but still some problems on her right side. She is really scared. I must admit I am too b/c lost my dad three years ago. I lost at that same hospital, my grandpa, my grandma two years ago.

No word from any other thing. I personally b elieve Darth is cheating on Ms. Family Values by staying with Monkeyho back home. Either that or he is staying at the area casinos. Yep. That is what the "force" is telling me...And that women's intuition has always served me well.

I am too stressed out. I am taking some personal time off from work this week. I don't know how they will take it, but I need it. My brain is on overload. I am mentally and physically depressed and exhausted. Plus friday is MEDIATION DAY. Can you believe all this poo at once? I need peace and a break. Please, please pray for me ok?

Son and I w ent on a little drive today for about an hour up to the edge of the mountains near where I went last weekend. It was gorgeous. A city called Dahlonega. Reminded me of a colorado town. During the week this next week, I will take him up there again and visit their working gold mines for a tour with him. Very cool. And we will pan for gold. Actually cheap to do this. And pack a picnic lunch. I need a big break. I will attempt to go home the following weekend for mom. She will be home then and need some help. Work will just have to wait. I am needing some breathing room. Still applying for other jobs and need much prayer ok?

Please keep praying for my mom, for my ending marriage and for son and I to have healthy new start. Also pray for new job for me. And yes, still pray for Darth. He is lost. I hurt for him too. But this marriage is over. Sad but very true. I wish one day he would change so bad. But that is a longshot and I want a new beginning for my boy and I.

Peach, Just wanted you to know that I will be praying for you and your family. I have followed your threads and I see you as becoming such a strong woman even through each of your heartaches. I like the labels you gave the players by the way..Rhonda

Peachy-

May God be with you, your son and your mom.

I will be praying, and praying. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

You have gone through so much already, and now this... I wish I had the answers for you, but don't ever lose heart that Jesus is right there with you, walking with you - and at this point - carrying you - through this time in your life.

Sometimes it's hard to remember during times like these, that God is love and that He wants the very best for us and that He is working to provide the best for us. The hardest thing for me to learn was that God's time is not our time. I think I see that for you. Soon your time and God's time will intersect, and then you will be really happy. It's just that God is trying to work while still respecting the free will of others(like Darth) and when those others are always chosing the wrong thing and getting in the way, well, it just might make things take alittle longer, that's all.

I await the day, when you are having the most incredible, wonderful, joyous life.

May God heal your mother, you and your son.

K

Peachy.....You know I am praying for you.

Love in Christ
cajunky

Notpeachy-

I'm so sorry to hear that things have been piling up on you lately...sounds like you deserve a break. Seems like you mentioned awhile back that you're looking to get in pharmaceutical sales. Have you had any luck? I know a couple of people working for Glaxo Smithkline and it sounds like they're looking for sales reps in Florida. Good luck with all of this, god (and lots of persistence) will see you through....

PS You probably already know this but apparently alot of the larger drug firms hire from sub-contractors. If you can't relocate, maybe you could find out who the "temp" firms are and go from there?

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Texmex: Sorry for your situation too. Please post more so we can hear about you too. Always glad to have new friends.

GIIC: Kay...I am so happy to hear from you. And you are sooo right about time intersections. I am parallel with God's as it seems and Darth is just now mixing oW as per my other posts. Web for him is tangling further and friday is mediation day. Gosh. Thank you for your prayers. And I know God is here for us. I can feel him.

Cajunky: Thanks buddy. Need all the prayer in the world right now. THanks you sooooo much. Keep your situation going strong btw. I always remember you and when I can, let others know, especially any ws here that post that you can do it and reconciliation is possible for some. You are that smaller percentage and doing it with style <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Litchfield: I am in Atl area in GA. Not sure of the smaller firms hiring. Would love to know. Please email me. And am doing ok with search. But alot of the co's are not hiring health professionals (even though I have an incredible background with sales success so it seems also). But I will hear from some hopefully soon. Let me know and thanks for your prayers and thoughts.

My mom underwent a cath today of her carotids and they studied the brain for further problems. However, they found a region in the brain known as the lenticulostriate area. There is a sub acute/acute infarct in that region. She is doing a tiny bit better today. No word from the doppler study also done. Still problems with R side and regaining mobility. She is able to walk a tiny bit but has R side arm gross motor skills but no fine motor skills. Pray for healing and she will make a comeback if anyone can. Our family's been hit hard. First dad died three years ago and now mom with this one and whammo! Darth doesn't even wait until dad is cold in the ground until he begins chasing the girls.

But I am strong somehow. Know it must be prayers. God bless you and thanks friends. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />