Court is Thursday & new stuff to deal with. Update this last month, Last month’s court date was postponed due to WH not having all the financial stuff done. He then went on 2 week vacation(with maybe OW not confirmed, niece implied) to his mothers. Now he has been back one week & says MIL is in poor shape finanically. WH said he could just puke. He didn’t see this when he was there visiting his mom. I asked if he help her get things done & he said they just looked at pictures. He loaned MIL $, which is okay with me. MIL called a short call to me three days later & I stayed within my boundaries, was polite & loving.

Now WH calls & says MIL is having some mental problems. WH has no clue where her power of attorney is & either do I. Five years ago I thought to myself about where WH stuck the document, but kept my thoughts to myself. (I didn’t think it was a secure place.) I can’t remember if I move them or just let it be. Right now it took me 30 min. to find my parent’s power of attorney. I have journal entries here & there in my bedroom. I don’t know if WH move it when FIL was ill or not. I have no clue right now. I don’t think WH has a clue about how his actions is affecting his family.

WH acted like it was just a typical day this morning when he pick up S to go fishing. I will bet WH has only spent about 15 hours with S in the last 3 months & he can call anytime or make arrangements. He didn’t discuss anything with S about court date or MIL. BOY, am I glad I am focusing on god because I would be going lu-lu also. Although I now have had a few beers.

Thinking about calling SIL and asking how I could help. Trying to be still in Plan B, but did discuss MIL & asked how WH was holding up. He didn’t even seem to realize that court was this coming week. Oh-Well.

Why do I still love this guy? I don’t want to be his mom, or like the disrespect. In one of his notes from last year, WH said he didn’t think he could be the man I wanted. He has now clue about how I felt about him when he was respectful. True, I don’t want this foggy guy.

I guess I am doing okay & just needed to vent. These events just seem to be a fictional story & not foggy reality.

I better go & put back together my rooms that I tore apart looking for WH's stuff. But I guess it could wait until tomorrow. I am tired. Vega

<small>[ March 10, 2003, 07:35 PM: Message edited by: Vega ]</small>

Today was almost to much, <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> work, events adding up & more on MIL's condition. Thank you god for giving me a focus <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> , otherwise I wouldn't be able to handle this drama. Sure could use some ideas about being a loving & very support
ex SIL, & yet stay out of WH's drama.

Friday night as I was tearing apart things looking for power of attoney, I cancelled plans to attend a college concert. Well, I was told today that stbxwh & OW went & then to the bar afterward. I guess he acted his normal high & mighty self. So much for worrying about MIL. Then Sat. fishing trip with son was sooo out of place. It seemed to be just so he could say he took S fishing. You know when WH can back early & didn't even eat grab a bite to eat with S, I thought it didn't seem right. Well, I guess OW was waiting for him back at his house. I understand now.

I volunteered a small house that I am fixing up for emergency shelter to families & I mentioned it in an e-mail to SIL for MIL. WH just talked to S telling S about grandma. I guess SIL & BIL just arrive at WH house to travel straight through to Mesa to get MIL. They have decided on assisted living. They were going to wait until D's college break & have SIL & D go & help. STBXWH has no clue how he has affected his mom, or any other memebers of his family.

Court is now in two days. I know I should look at this as being removed from this event & being protected. But then again maybe my perception of the events are just way off base. If they are please someone give it to me straight.