Well, got a couple things in the mail today... one was copy of ex's attorney's latest letter. Wonder what he would do if he couldn't paint me as the psychob***h from hell? Oh well, almost over. I'm glad ex gives me enough stuff being contemptuous and doing illegal stuff that I don't have to resort to making up stuff about him.
The neat thing? I officially have a case with the DAs for Child Support Enforcement, which means they finally read all the child abuse stuff and things may begin to move, finally! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> It feels like it has been years to bring some accountability to ex. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" /> Oh my, it has been years!!!!
Some friends have said why put him in jail if it will jeopardize my child support... is that why so many aren't reported and let go? Because of money? There needs to be some accountability for his actions, and if that means jail time, then so be it. My kids and I have been traumatized and I think we all need to see that there is some justice. What happened to right and wrong and why if money is involved do the black and white issues turn all sorts of grey?
My dad is coming out to stay a bit, he said he plans on camping out at the DAs for a bit to find out what took so long. It'll be nice to have him. I think we will get to go visit my OD at her school while he is here, too.
I'm tired, but I think there is beginning to be a light at the end of the tunnel. Wonder if I'll feel lighter when the years of frustration and despair can be lifted? I still think about what ex said on the phone about me losing. I still am owndering what it was I lost? I personally think I gained my childrens and my sanity back (well, there are moments where I wonder if it wouldn't be easier to just go catatonic), we all gained a normal life back, I gained my self esteem and freedom back. Now, if I just had time to use some of that freedom <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> yeah, I'm in debt up to my arched eyebrows (sorry, peachy, just had to use that line), but if I keep looking forward, I'll be OK.
Monday will be interesting. I plan to try and get a new restraining order, I will call the Support people and request that they rerun child support amounts as I was forced to settle at a much higher income than I make (might as well try to save a bit before he goes to jail), will continue to call Victim of Crime Compensation Advocates and see if they've bothered to get the police report yet, and will just begin tying up all loose ends. It's good when a package comes together and is tied up all nice and pretty.
Lori
