h left 3 months ago...says he wants to get back together, even broke it off with OW although they still see each other because they work together, BUT

1) no effort to go to marital counseling..keeps making excuses not to make appt..i am already in IC

2) has registered on singles website and is emailing woman...tells them he's getting a divorce and everything is great between us and we have a good relatioship...looking for somebody to spend time with...although we spend a lot of time together with our son.

He talks to me about getting back together, getting counseling, working on the relationship, but i think he just can't break away for some reason. I have a feeling it isn't me he wants to be with but our son. Since i have custody, our son spends most of his time with me. In my heart, I know he is over me, but he says he loves me...

In the meantime I feel strung along and he denies the singles website...doesn't surprise me as it took physical proof before H admitted to his affairs.

I want to give up on this man..just having a hard time breaking away. I pray about it every day to break the ties to this man.

I feel like I should stop all contact with him, but I am going into hospital in a couple weeks and feel I need him to be with me as I don't have family here...but part of me doesnt' feel like he should be there.