Hello everyone,
It's been awhile since I last posted here. I haven't been on the discussion boards because it made me depressed and angry. I hate seeing marriages breaking up, including mine.
Last Friday STBXW and I signed our divorce papers. Now I'm waiting for a California judge to approve the papers. This should take 4 - 12 weeks depending on the case load.
I don't really know how to feel these days. I want to move on and discover who I am, but I'm still holding on to anger due to the betrayal of STBXW. The selfishness one person does to another (supposively best friends) just amazes me. I don't understand it.
I now have my children every other week. It's very depressing when I don't have them because I have been the closer parent to them.
I did keep the house. I try not to think of the A that ocured in my house, but it still creeps in.
"Life is like a box of chocolates", you never know exactly what you might get. I think I was dealt some rotten chocolate and now I'm sick.

Hang in there Dac it's a very long healing process. It's been a little over 2 years for me and I still have my set backs. Please take care of yourself and focus on your boys God Help you and Bless you.

Carl

Thanks Carl. I know I shouldn't feel like everything will be perfect this very second. I jst want to get off this roller coaster emotional ride. It's sressful and tiring.

Hey Dac unfortunately its going to be stressfull for quite some time it's just that after a while we learn to accept it and it just becomes easier. I also see my liitle girl every other week and it's still painfull but as time goes on the pain lessens a liitle bit. What I did is schedule regular telephone calls with my daughter so that I can at least talk to her almost everyday and feel like I am still part of her day. maybe something like that will help you and your boys.
Be strong

Carl