Hello. I have been a steady reader here at Mb however, I feel the need now for some input. My wife chaeated on me last year from Around June until D-Day of Sept. 7, 2003. She point blank told me that she "Loved him" and had been seeing him. She rubbed the whole thing in my face. Calling him in front of me, telling me that she was taking our 2 children to live with him..etc. I filed for divorce 2 weeks later. She moved out. A couple of weeks go by and she starts the whole "I'm sorry" stuff. We then decide to filr an order of reconciliation. I told her that all contact MUST stop. I find out thru my phone bills from December thru MArch of this yr that she had still been calling him and she denied all of the calls. The OM wife wife called me and told that her Husband admitted to her of the ongoing meeting and phone calls. We were all friends at one time. I go home, confront her and move out. We start MC and 3 weeks later I move home. She told the MC that she is sorry for huting me but not sorry for what happened. What the hell? Now today..no sex life at all. None since last September. She says that she wants it work, but how do I know? I got a letter from my attorney this past weekend stating that the divorce will be dropped if no further action is taken in one month. I do love her..but I do not trust her. I have since found out that he had been calling her with a calling card before..so no way to trace the number. I am thankful that we are trying, but am extremely concerned that she is at home only in body. I have mentioned to her many times that a small amount of affection (not sex)would do wonders for me, however she still refuses saying that she is not ready. I keep seeing his face in my mind and seriously want to make hime suffer like he has made me and my children hurt. She was very mad at me in the divorce issue since I was the Plantiff. She said that this was just another way for me to control her. Deep down i am very confused. I want my children to grow up with their parents and no one else.

<small>[ May 05, 2003, 02:17 PM: Message edited by: KarlM ]</small>